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Evenin All
I'm just sitting around watchin the OC ! Gotta love this show, Seth makes me chuckle !
Ooh well... So, I've had a kinda interestin weekend. Last night i was at this family party thingy, my uncle Jimmy turned 65 (Gettin Old) haha, would have been ok yeah, but the sorta other side of the family was there, and frankly theirs some animosity there, they have some sort of problem with all of us, like my and my immediate cousins, and aren't sly with it either ! Not too worry though, there all dicks so i'm not angry with them. They left fairly early however, which was fun as that left us a few hours just to sit around and shoot the shit, which is always pretty funny !
What else then, well saturday during the day was differant, me and my little friend grant were persuaded into heading into twn to meet this girl for 'old times sake' thats fine in Grants case, but well for me it wasn't particularly 'old time' ! ... This girl happened to also be my girlfriend from last May to September and we loved each other, we've both moved on since then however, so yesterday should have been fine !
Problem is, it dawned on me, espically when it was just the two of us, that maybe i'm not quite ready to move on, i still really do like her ! She was my first love and maybe it's true what they say, first love never dies away, no matter how long ago it was ! However, it's clear theirs no chance of anything happening, neither of us even want that, but it's a scary thought that i might never be fully past it all. The nice thing is though, whenever i think back to the times we had together, it instantly makes me feel happy, no matter what, even though their is a tint of sadness, but that's worth it, just so long as the memories never disapear.
Looks like those memories are what i'm going to need to stay happy in the near future, i seem to have gotten myself into a bad place with a certain other girl, and now i'm worried that i might be too far gone just to wash my hands of everything and get out of it. The scheme previously mentioned for this sunday, was never put into place, the opportunity never arrived. I'm not mad or anything, more impatient, and why do people not just open their moves and God Damm talk to me about stuff !!
'It's only later you learn to lean your head in the lap of God, and rest in love'
- Kerouac
I'll Be talkin to ya xxx
I'm just sitting around watchin the OC ! Gotta love this show, Seth makes me chuckle !
Ooh well... So, I've had a kinda interestin weekend. Last night i was at this family party thingy, my uncle Jimmy turned 65 (Gettin Old) haha, would have been ok yeah, but the sorta other side of the family was there, and frankly theirs some animosity there, they have some sort of problem with all of us, like my and my immediate cousins, and aren't sly with it either ! Not too worry though, there all dicks so i'm not angry with them. They left fairly early however, which was fun as that left us a few hours just to sit around and shoot the shit, which is always pretty funny !
What else then, well saturday during the day was differant, me and my little friend grant were persuaded into heading into twn to meet this girl for 'old times sake' thats fine in Grants case, but well for me it wasn't particularly 'old time' ! ... This girl happened to also be my girlfriend from last May to September and we loved each other, we've both moved on since then however, so yesterday should have been fine !
Problem is, it dawned on me, espically when it was just the two of us, that maybe i'm not quite ready to move on, i still really do like her ! She was my first love and maybe it's true what they say, first love never dies away, no matter how long ago it was ! However, it's clear theirs no chance of anything happening, neither of us even want that, but it's a scary thought that i might never be fully past it all. The nice thing is though, whenever i think back to the times we had together, it instantly makes me feel happy, no matter what, even though their is a tint of sadness, but that's worth it, just so long as the memories never disapear.
Looks like those memories are what i'm going to need to stay happy in the near future, i seem to have gotten myself into a bad place with a certain other girl, and now i'm worried that i might be too far gone just to wash my hands of everything and get out of it. The scheme previously mentioned for this sunday, was never put into place, the opportunity never arrived. I'm not mad or anything, more impatient, and why do people not just open their moves and God Damm talk to me about stuff !!
'It's only later you learn to lean your head in the lap of God, and rest in love'
- Kerouac
I'll Be talkin to ya xxx
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