So once again i'n gonna do a little summary of this year. All i can say, first and foremost is this... Fuck me, it's been a little bit mental. All aboard :)
January:
So the year kicked off with a bang. Literally, from the moment the clock hit midnight the shit hit the fan. As would become a theme, i wasnt really aware, just doing what i felt like doing. Some people took it all too seriously, ahh well. But New Year was fantastic. And the month itself was good. I was led down a path in the first part that i thought was something possibly special, but then that just kinda petered out... Or so i thought. Uni kicked off again. This term would fly by though, and i have to admit it was nowhere near as brilliant as the first. Ahh well.
February:
This was a strange month. But good. The first half flew in without too much incident. A highlight being my good friend and relative Dave begining to stamp his mark upon my uni friends and starting the integration of my social circles. The first part of the month was spent basically with the uni group hanging around with each other in various wee events, nothing groundbreaking, but nice. The second half but brought about the events that led to the previously given up, becoming a reality, which was a very welcome turn of events.
March:
This was one of the top months. Fantastic sums it up. It built up slowly, with a lot of uni work to be done and dusted early on. This was completed without incident. So then the fun began. Paddy's day. One of the best nights of my life ! I can barely remember much of it, except it was class ! this was followed by a few nights, topped of by a mate (Sean's) 20th birthday. Well done him for lasting that long, but for me the night was pretty magical. I left with a girlfriend. The same girl who i had first felt something special with in January, having met her the previous October. We sorta fell back towards each other in February and by March we were together. Good stuff !
April:
Nothing exciting really happend in April to be honest. Just uni work and chilling with the girlfriend. Good fun though :) I'm really struggling to think of any major. So, we shall move swiftly on.....
May:
This was a bloody busy month so it was. aw a good few gigs, namely Hole and Rihanna. Hole was class, fully in love with courney Love, what a legend ! There was a few good parties too this month. My brother and my friend (and surrogate sister) Cherry/Sonia/Charlotta Reini, both turned 21 on the same weekend. That was good fun, i love a party. So for that reason, i got very drunk. The month finished up with me flying off to Florida, then onto New York on holiday.
June:
June stared in the USA with two weeks in Good 'ol Orlando. Me, mom, dad, Stuart and Natalie. A really nice two weeks, then on to New York for a few days. I really do love that city ! The world cup kicked of as well, but as per usual it was a bit shit, a total let down, and thus won't be mentioned any further. After coming home, i stayed for a week in gorgie with the then girlfriend, and just hung out, socialising with the usual suspects and generally just having a right good time. I then turned 18 which was a case of thank the fucking lord ! i couldn be arsed with havin to loan others ID's for much longer. I did realise however that after turning 18 people stop checking yoour age places. Therefore rendering it sorta pointless. That is an exagaration by the way, not a fair representation of Scottish licensing law.
July:
This was fine, right up until the final whistle. Again, it wasn't too busy, well not with exciting stuff anyway, just the usual kinda stuff. I was out & about a lot, drinking loads and in general just having a right good old giggle. Yay ! Also this month saw the dawning of the most powerful and feared pub quiz team in the land, it didnt appear fully formed, me, Dave and Greig started of with just a mindful of answers and no steady name, but it was the begining of something sorta brillinat. Right at the end however, the last day ! My life kinda hit a road block. Me and the girlfriend broke up ! i almost, sorta saw it coming but not enough to not still be upset by it. It really floored me and of course (with me being the enotional sort) i was left pretty devestated.
August:
This entire month was a write off. There was no chance i was gonna be up to much good, i was basically feeling kinda numb. The only proper highlight was seeing my favourite band Blink-182 in concert for the first time in six years. This gig serves as my release after all the bullshit that had preceeded it that month, i went fucking crazy, not my usual reserved, controlled self. And had a great fucking time. Also a friend reered her head again and became very helpful in getting over my winy, emo bullshit. so thanks for that.
September.
This month saw me go back to uni, the uni social group start up again, and Dave becoming a main player in it all, with greig also joining a few gatherings, so now my separate social locations had grouped together, quite useful :) All was good this month to be honest, i started to feel a lot better about everything and it all got pretty fun again, so cant really complain.
October:
Wow, this was a bit busy and kinda, sorta, just a little bit mental ! Went to London with el Dave to see lifehouse, amazing gig ! Few parties: Daves 19th and a kick ass halloween costume party which we all got done up brillinatly for (check a few posts ago.) Dave neded up with a girlfriend, who is absolutely lovely, so well done him, i'm delighted for him :) Me on the other didnt get a new girlfriend. I did kinda get involved with the rooomate of two pals, although purely in a friendly manner at this point, although it wouldnt remain like that, due to a lapse in my resistance haha. MY closenss to her caused issues, i wasnt supposed to spend time with her, there was anger and a lot of jealousy, i just remained aloof, inoring the trouble that was brewing around me, and the ignoring the manner in which my actionss were starting to cause problems beyond even my limits.
November:
Ok, ok, i fucked the fucking roommate ! That basically sums this month up, it's all i heard at te time, and all i've heard since ! I'm through apologising for it though, i only did what came natural, yeah it was daft but i defy any single guy to have said no. End of story ! Apart from that this month was decent. a lot of drama was going on, mostly caused by me, but i managed to stay clear of too much trouble as others had to pick up the peices, yeah it's a 'lil mean, but hey, gotta do it !
December:
This month has been rather good. Ruined by having a job like, but atleast i've earned a fair whack of cash ! i've been working at Next for those interested, actually a decent place to work, staff get treated really well, but the clothes themselves are proper shite ! so i'd not recommend buying anything from the store ! haha. What else... Ehh, christmass was chilled, but nice. A family affair. I've got a large and really good fun family though so it's always a laugh. It's still December until midnight though, so hopefully still some good times to come :)
So there you have it. It's been an up and down year. All in all i'd say good though. The good was as good as it get's the bad, was bottom of the barrel stuff, but as always, i survive, and i bounce back.
A few thankyou's are in order.
Dad,
Mom,
Stuart,
Dave,
Natalie,
Molly (my Dog),
My entire uni group of friends,
And a special mention to a certain Lisa Reini. Over one year we have experienced every side of each other. Every mood, every feeling, every fight, every fall. For awhile we were as close as it get's. Now we are quite distant. But we are both still there, as it should be. So thank you for being this year for me. For making it everythin it is, and leaving me with the memories of everything it was. Thanks for the memories my dear :)
Good night, and good luck !
I'll Be Talkin to Yaa xxx
Friday, 31 December 2010
2010- A Year in Review
So once again i'n gonna do a little summary of this year. All i can say, first and foremost is this... Fuck me, it's been a little bit mental. All aboard :)
January:
So the year kicked off with a bang. Literally, from the moment the clock hit midnight the shit hit the fan. As would become a theme, i wasnt really aware, just doing what i felt like doing. Some people took it all too seriously, ahh well. But New Year was fantastic. And the month itself was good. I was led down a path in the first part that i thought was something possibly special, but then that just kinda petered out... Or so i thought. Uni kicked off again. This term would fly by though, and i have to admit it was nowhere near as brilliant as the first. Ahh well.
February:
This was a strange month. But good. The first half flew in without too much incident. A highlight being my good friend and relative Dave begining to stamp his mark upon my uni friends and starting the integration of my social circles. The first part of the month was spent basically with the uni group hanging around with each other in various wee events, nothing groundbreaking, but nice. The second half but brought about the events that led to the previously given up, becoming a reality, which was a very welcome turn of events.
March:
This was one of the top months. Fantastic sums it up. It built up slowly, with a lot of uni work to be done and dusted early on. This was completed without incident. So then the fun began. Paddy's day. One of the best nights of my life ! I can barely remember much of it, except it was class ! this was followed by a few nights, topped of by a mate (Sean's) 20th birthday. Well done him for lasting that long, but for me the night was pretty magical. I left with a girlfriend. The same girl who i had first felt something special with in January, having met her the previous October. We sorta fell back towards each other in February and by March we were together. Good stuff !
April:
Nothing exciting really happend in April to be honest. Just uni work and chilling with the girlfriend. Good fun though :) I'm really struggling to think of any major. So, we shall move swiftly on.....
May:
This was a bloody busy month so it was. aw a good few gigs, namely Hole and Rihanna. Hole was class, fully in love with courney Love, what a legend ! There was a few good parties too this month. My brother and my friend (and surrogate sister) Cherry/Sonia/Charlotta Reini, both turned 21 on the same weekend. That was good fun, i love a party. So for that reason, i got very drunk. The month finished up with me flying off to Florida, then onto New York on holiday.
June:
June stared in the USA with two weeks in Good 'ol Orlando. Me, mom, dad, Stuart and Natalie. A really nice two weeks, then on to New York for a few days. I really do love that city ! The world cup kicked of as well, but as per usual it was a bit shit, a total let down, and thus won't be mentioned any further. After coming home, i stayed for a week in gorgie with the then girlfriend, and just hung out, socialising with the usual suspects and generally just having a right good time. I then turned 18 which was a case of thank the fucking lord ! i couldn be arsed with havin to loan others ID's for much longer. I did realise however that after turning 18 people stop checking yoour age places. Therefore rendering it sorta pointless. That is an exagaration by the way, not a fair representation of Scottish licensing law.
July:
This was fine, right up until the final whistle. Again, it wasn't too busy, well not with exciting stuff anyway, just the usual kinda stuff. I was out & about a lot, drinking loads and in general just having a right good old giggle. Yay ! Also this month saw the dawning of the most powerful and feared pub quiz team in the land, it didnt appear fully formed, me, Dave and Greig started of with just a mindful of answers and no steady name, but it was the begining of something sorta brillinat. Right at the end however, the last day ! My life kinda hit a road block. Me and the girlfriend broke up ! i almost, sorta saw it coming but not enough to not still be upset by it. It really floored me and of course (with me being the enotional sort) i was left pretty devestated.
August:
This entire month was a write off. There was no chance i was gonna be up to much good, i was basically feeling kinda numb. The only proper highlight was seeing my favourite band Blink-182 in concert for the first time in six years. This gig serves as my release after all the bullshit that had preceeded it that month, i went fucking crazy, not my usual reserved, controlled self. And had a great fucking time. Also a friend reered her head again and became very helpful in getting over my winy, emo bullshit. so thanks for that.
September.
This month saw me go back to uni, the uni social group start up again, and Dave becoming a main player in it all, with greig also joining a few gatherings, so now my separate social locations had grouped together, quite useful :) All was good this month to be honest, i started to feel a lot better about everything and it all got pretty fun again, so cant really complain.
October:
Wow, this was a bit busy and kinda, sorta, just a little bit mental ! Went to London with el Dave to see lifehouse, amazing gig ! Few parties: Daves 19th and a kick ass halloween costume party which we all got done up brillinatly for (check a few posts ago.) Dave neded up with a girlfriend, who is absolutely lovely, so well done him, i'm delighted for him :) Me on the other didnt get a new girlfriend. I did kinda get involved with the rooomate of two pals, although purely in a friendly manner at this point, although it wouldnt remain like that, due to a lapse in my resistance haha. MY closenss to her caused issues, i wasnt supposed to spend time with her, there was anger and a lot of jealousy, i just remained aloof, inoring the trouble that was brewing around me, and the ignoring the manner in which my actionss were starting to cause problems beyond even my limits.
November:
Ok, ok, i fucked the fucking roommate ! That basically sums this month up, it's all i heard at te time, and all i've heard since ! I'm through apologising for it though, i only did what came natural, yeah it was daft but i defy any single guy to have said no. End of story ! Apart from that this month was decent. a lot of drama was going on, mostly caused by me, but i managed to stay clear of too much trouble as others had to pick up the peices, yeah it's a 'lil mean, but hey, gotta do it !
December:
This month has been rather good. Ruined by having a job like, but atleast i've earned a fair whack of cash ! i've been working at Next for those interested, actually a decent place to work, staff get treated really well, but the clothes themselves are proper shite ! so i'd not recommend buying anything from the store ! haha. What else... Ehh, christmass was chilled, but nice. A family affair. I've got a large and really good fun family though so it's always a laugh. It's still December until midnight though, so hopefully still some good times to come :)
So there you have it. It's been an up and down year. All in all i'd say good though. The good was as good as it get's the bad, was bottom of the barrel stuff, but as always, i survive, and i bounce back.
A few thankyou's are in order.
Dad,
Mom,
Stuart,
Dave,
Natalie,
Molly (my Dog),
My entire uni group of friends,
And a special mention to a certain Lisa Reini. Over one year we have experienced every side of each other. Every mood, every feeling, every fight, every fall. For awhile we were as close as it get's. Now we are quite distant. But we are both still there, as it should be. So thank you for being this year for me. For making it everythin it is, and leaving me with the memories of everything it was. Thanks for the memories my dear :)
Good night, and good luck !
I'll Be Talkin to Yaa xxx
January:
So the year kicked off with a bang. Literally, from the moment the clock hit midnight the shit hit the fan. As would become a theme, i wasnt really aware, just doing what i felt like doing. Some people took it all too seriously, ahh well. But New Year was fantastic. And the month itself was good. I was led down a path in the first part that i thought was something possibly special, but then that just kinda petered out... Or so i thought. Uni kicked off again. This term would fly by though, and i have to admit it was nowhere near as brilliant as the first. Ahh well.
February:
This was a strange month. But good. The first half flew in without too much incident. A highlight being my good friend and relative Dave begining to stamp his mark upon my uni friends and starting the integration of my social circles. The first part of the month was spent basically with the uni group hanging around with each other in various wee events, nothing groundbreaking, but nice. The second half but brought about the events that led to the previously given up, becoming a reality, which was a very welcome turn of events.
March:
This was one of the top months. Fantastic sums it up. It built up slowly, with a lot of uni work to be done and dusted early on. This was completed without incident. So then the fun began. Paddy's day. One of the best nights of my life ! I can barely remember much of it, except it was class ! this was followed by a few nights, topped of by a mate (Sean's) 20th birthday. Well done him for lasting that long, but for me the night was pretty magical. I left with a girlfriend. The same girl who i had first felt something special with in January, having met her the previous October. We sorta fell back towards each other in February and by March we were together. Good stuff !
April:
Nothing exciting really happend in April to be honest. Just uni work and chilling with the girlfriend. Good fun though :) I'm really struggling to think of any major. So, we shall move swiftly on.....
May:
This was a bloody busy month so it was. aw a good few gigs, namely Hole and Rihanna. Hole was class, fully in love with courney Love, what a legend ! There was a few good parties too this month. My brother and my friend (and surrogate sister) Cherry/Sonia/Charlotta Reini, both turned 21 on the same weekend. That was good fun, i love a party. So for that reason, i got very drunk. The month finished up with me flying off to Florida, then onto New York on holiday.
June:
June stared in the USA with two weeks in Good 'ol Orlando. Me, mom, dad, Stuart and Natalie. A really nice two weeks, then on to New York for a few days. I really do love that city ! The world cup kicked of as well, but as per usual it was a bit shit, a total let down, and thus won't be mentioned any further. After coming home, i stayed for a week in gorgie with the then girlfriend, and just hung out, socialising with the usual suspects and generally just having a right good time. I then turned 18 which was a case of thank the fucking lord ! i couldn be arsed with havin to loan others ID's for much longer. I did realise however that after turning 18 people stop checking yoour age places. Therefore rendering it sorta pointless. That is an exagaration by the way, not a fair representation of Scottish licensing law.
July:
This was fine, right up until the final whistle. Again, it wasn't too busy, well not with exciting stuff anyway, just the usual kinda stuff. I was out & about a lot, drinking loads and in general just having a right good old giggle. Yay ! Also this month saw the dawning of the most powerful and feared pub quiz team in the land, it didnt appear fully formed, me, Dave and Greig started of with just a mindful of answers and no steady name, but it was the begining of something sorta brillinat. Right at the end however, the last day ! My life kinda hit a road block. Me and the girlfriend broke up ! i almost, sorta saw it coming but not enough to not still be upset by it. It really floored me and of course (with me being the enotional sort) i was left pretty devestated.
August:
This entire month was a write off. There was no chance i was gonna be up to much good, i was basically feeling kinda numb. The only proper highlight was seeing my favourite band Blink-182 in concert for the first time in six years. This gig serves as my release after all the bullshit that had preceeded it that month, i went fucking crazy, not my usual reserved, controlled self. And had a great fucking time. Also a friend reered her head again and became very helpful in getting over my winy, emo bullshit. so thanks for that.
September.
This month saw me go back to uni, the uni social group start up again, and Dave becoming a main player in it all, with greig also joining a few gatherings, so now my separate social locations had grouped together, quite useful :) All was good this month to be honest, i started to feel a lot better about everything and it all got pretty fun again, so cant really complain.
October:
Wow, this was a bit busy and kinda, sorta, just a little bit mental ! Went to London with el Dave to see lifehouse, amazing gig ! Few parties: Daves 19th and a kick ass halloween costume party which we all got done up brillinatly for (check a few posts ago.) Dave neded up with a girlfriend, who is absolutely lovely, so well done him, i'm delighted for him :) Me on the other didnt get a new girlfriend. I did kinda get involved with the rooomate of two pals, although purely in a friendly manner at this point, although it wouldnt remain like that, due to a lapse in my resistance haha. MY closenss to her caused issues, i wasnt supposed to spend time with her, there was anger and a lot of jealousy, i just remained aloof, inoring the trouble that was brewing around me, and the ignoring the manner in which my actionss were starting to cause problems beyond even my limits.
November:
Ok, ok, i fucked the fucking roommate ! That basically sums this month up, it's all i heard at te time, and all i've heard since ! I'm through apologising for it though, i only did what came natural, yeah it was daft but i defy any single guy to have said no. End of story ! Apart from that this month was decent. a lot of drama was going on, mostly caused by me, but i managed to stay clear of too much trouble as others had to pick up the peices, yeah it's a 'lil mean, but hey, gotta do it !
December:
This month has been rather good. Ruined by having a job like, but atleast i've earned a fair whack of cash ! i've been working at Next for those interested, actually a decent place to work, staff get treated really well, but the clothes themselves are proper shite ! so i'd not recommend buying anything from the store ! haha. What else... Ehh, christmass was chilled, but nice. A family affair. I've got a large and really good fun family though so it's always a laugh. It's still December until midnight though, so hopefully still some good times to come :)
So there you have it. It's been an up and down year. All in all i'd say good though. The good was as good as it get's the bad, was bottom of the barrel stuff, but as always, i survive, and i bounce back.
A few thankyou's are in order.
Dad,
Mom,
Stuart,
Dave,
Natalie,
Molly (my Dog),
My entire uni group of friends,
And a special mention to a certain Lisa Reini. Over one year we have experienced every side of each other. Every mood, every feeling, every fight, every fall. For awhile we were as close as it get's. Now we are quite distant. But we are both still there, as it should be. So thank you for being this year for me. For making it everythin it is, and leaving me with the memories of everything it was. Thanks for the memories my dear :)
Good night, and good luck !
I'll Be Talkin to Yaa xxx
Saturday, 25 December 2010
Friday, 24 December 2010
Phones !!!!!
Right, got to be getting this of my chest ! I Have a Blackberry, called Barry, Barry the Blackberry, and guess what it's pish !
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Phones !!!!!
Right, got to be getting this of my chest ! I Have a Blackberry, called Barry, Barry the Blackberry, and guess what it's pish !
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Thursday, 23 December 2010
Long Gone & Moved On
'When's the day you start again
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Long Gone & Moved On
'When's the day you start again
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Just A Funny Picture.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Just A Funny Picture.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Last Christmas...
I keep saying i've gotta stop living in the past. But sometimes it's inevitable. Things trigger memories y'know. How can i just ignore that, it goes against everything i am. I'm a sucker for nostalgia. Looking back is less scary then looking forward. And far more comforting. Especially in those moments where just for a second you actually manage to trick yourself into feeling exactly how you felt back then. That's the moments to savour, the good stuff right there. A moment in your life were you know that in month or years you will be looking back and enjoying it again and again.
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Last Christmas...
I keep saying i've gotta stop living in the past. But sometimes it's inevitable. Things trigger memories y'know. How can i just ignore that, it goes against everything i am. I'm a sucker for nostalgia. Looking back is less scary then looking forward. And far more comforting. Especially in those moments where just for a second you actually manage to trick yourself into feeling exactly how you felt back then. That's the moments to savour, the good stuff right there. A moment in your life were you know that in month or years you will be looking back and enjoying it again and again.
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Like A Rolling Stone
Some people can't help but fire in too heavy handed. How was I to guess that she was gonna be this contradictory ? She wears promiscuity like a badge of honour, but then declares herself heartbroken. For fuck sake. I've always got to find some drama don't I. Even when I'm trying to avoid it, I get caught up !
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Like A Rolling Stone
Some people can't help but fire in too heavy handed. How was I to guess that she was gonna be this contradictory ? She wears promiscuity like a badge of honour, but then declares herself heartbroken. For fuck sake. I've always got to find some drama don't I. Even when I'm trying to avoid it, I get caught up !
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Thursday, 2 December 2010
I-Empire
Selfish.....
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
I-Empire
Selfish.....
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Thursday, 25 November 2010
Kid's From Yesterday
'And now this could be the last of all the rides we take,
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Kid's From Yesterday
'And now this could be the last of all the rides we take,
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Tuesday, 23 November 2010
The Backseat
'In the backseats of burned out cars.
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
The Backseat
'In the backseats of burned out cars.
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
Friday, 19 November 2010
A Big Pile Of Mess
If the question was where does steve Runciman want to be at the moment the answer would be this: Sitting somewere dark, someplace in the city, in the open, hidden away, on his own, watching everybody. Sounds gloomy as fuck, but that's exactly were I am right now as I write this, I'm hiding basically, from everything and everyone. Nothing is going to plan, my strategy for the year is well destroyed, I'm just improvising now, because everything is fucked up. And I really don't know what to do. For the first time in a long time I'm scared.
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
A Big Pile Of Mess
If the question was where does steve Runciman want to be at the moment the answer would be this: Sitting somewere dark, someplace in the city, in the open, hidden away, on his own, watching everybody. Sounds gloomy as fuck, but that's exactly were I am right now as I write this, I'm hiding basically, from everything and everyone. Nothing is going to plan, my strategy for the year is well destroyed, I'm just improvising now, because everything is fucked up. And I really don't know what to do. For the first time in a long time I'm scared.
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Sunday, 14 November 2010
The All Time Sad (But Good) Playlist:
10. The River- Bruce Springsteen
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
The All Time Sad (But Good) Playlist:
10. The River- Bruce Springsteen
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
Lyric Of The Day
With thanks to miss Taylor Swift-
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Lyric Of The Day
With thanks to miss Taylor Swift-
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Breakdown In Something Less Than Ordinary
Now that we don't speak I'm realising how important you were. Sure, I had an idea, course I fucking did, but it takes time to heal the problem and too fully understand the root of it.
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Breakdown In Something Less Than Ordinary
Now that we don't speak I'm realising how important you were. Sure, I had an idea, course I fucking did, but it takes time to heal the problem and too fully understand the root of it.
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Friday, 12 November 2010
Reckless Abandon
I think this song sums up my life better then anything i've ever seen, heard, or even read.
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Reckless Abandon
I think this song sums up my life better then anything i've ever seen, heard, or even read.
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Sunday, 7 November 2010
It's Hard To Be a Saint.
Turn on the lights,
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
It's Hard To Be a Saint.
Turn on the lights,
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Friday, 15 October 2010
Take My Breath Away, I'm A Supernova....
Update time. Nothing new really, just the same old, same old. There lies the problem, in having nothing groundbreaking occur it feels like a lot has happend. You live, you learn. Isn't that right. Aww who knows ! Basicly i'm fucking fed-up ... Again ! It's feeling like the constant tide has more or les just settled for now, i honestly can't see anything, or make that anyone (maybe) on the horizon. And that never bodes well for me does it ?
If things aren't in flux i'm fucked (could be a new motta that) and it's leading up to that. I had plans, great big fucking ambitious plans, for the start of this uni year, but by this point already, it's mostly fallen by the wayside. Everyone has found a groove, a rythm and a purpose. And i'm feeling kinda left out, i'm not soo much integral as external. I don't really need to be there now. I have nothing to pull me in. There are literaly people who want me to just fuck of, just get ghost. And yeah i deserve it ! i feel fucking bad. i say the wrong things, at the wrong times. I'm relentless in my constant pursuit of something better, the next big chapter so to speak. And in doing so maybe i do bulldose over the few people who i should stop and thank and then apologise too. The under-appreciated. I genuinally am kept sane by these mofo's and the only credit i ever give back is by walking all over them at every opportunity. Act first, feel bad later ! That's total bullshit isn't it ! All i can say is that i mean well, but in a fight between doing the right thing, and engaging my massive fucking ego, i constantly lose track of what is happening. And then spend days regreting it. Feeling a complete and utter wanker ! I am trying now though, i am doing my best to be good. I like being good to people. It makes me feel decent and also i enjoy it. in the right company, i find everything fun. This week i've smiled more then i have for a long, long time. And two people are to thank for that. I wish i could than them both. He knows, of course he does. That boy is like my emotional barrier, he keeps me safe so he does. She has everyright to murder me, but still tries to be nice to me ! I honestly don't get it ! I don't deserve shit ! But i get to hear nice things, and she should be thanked, and loved. But i don't have the balls to say that, or even show that. Except maybe here. Maybe ?
What the fuck else then... Could the apprentice be moving on from the master, and in doing so, taking some of his ideas with him. Surely not ! Well..... ? I'm not so sure, the banker, the one i was sure of, ever so sure. My first priority if you will... BOOM ! Looks to be gone, swept up in a cloud of him ! I don't get it, i'm happy about it though, i don't deserve another go at that game, and this guy is awesome. He's far more inclined to not fuck it up so all the best, i'm gonna make this happen for you sir, even if i'm lost in the muck doing it. But i'm not gonna be sitting on my ass waiting on any runner up prize. Not at all, when the shit hits the fan (And when does it never) there will be a new competition, and a new numero uno. What i couldn't possibly say ! But i'll cross that bridge only when the paths flooded, at the moment the land seems firm. But for how much longer ? Theres gotta be something coming soon.... A Big black cloud of mystery. Or atleast a sniff of a chase. That is all it takes, get me to engage, and i can still run with the best of them. I don't think my confidence has ever been this fucking low. I can barely look in the mirror without wanting to punch myself (Which i done by the way, and yes it does fucking hurt !) i've annoyed me. It's like everything that i had going for me has pissed of someplace, i'm no longer commanding attention, the interest, the questions have been replaced by a kinda nonchelance. Yes that's him, yeah we know and yup we think he's a cock too. Sums up the worlds approach to the Steve dilemma at this moment in hstory.
This can all of course change fast though, fast like the flash ! I just need a change of some sort, a slight rumble in the jungle. And all will be back to usual. I just wanna be able to say 'Steve is back' and that will be a god damm relief ! It has been too long now, i've just been a shadow of what i was, and this shit doesn't sit well. I suppose its time to find some confidence. Wait for it, it's coming... i know it ! It always is, lull before a storm. Perhaps ? I hope so, i need so. So time to introduce a little anarchy, time to let chaos come down on all this. And maybe, just maybe, it's that time again. To set the mother fucking house on fire. 1, 2, 3.... I'm trying.
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
If things aren't in flux i'm fucked (could be a new motta that) and it's leading up to that. I had plans, great big fucking ambitious plans, for the start of this uni year, but by this point already, it's mostly fallen by the wayside. Everyone has found a groove, a rythm and a purpose. And i'm feeling kinda left out, i'm not soo much integral as external. I don't really need to be there now. I have nothing to pull me in. There are literaly people who want me to just fuck of, just get ghost. And yeah i deserve it ! i feel fucking bad. i say the wrong things, at the wrong times. I'm relentless in my constant pursuit of something better, the next big chapter so to speak. And in doing so maybe i do bulldose over the few people who i should stop and thank and then apologise too. The under-appreciated. I genuinally am kept sane by these mofo's and the only credit i ever give back is by walking all over them at every opportunity. Act first, feel bad later ! That's total bullshit isn't it ! All i can say is that i mean well, but in a fight between doing the right thing, and engaging my massive fucking ego, i constantly lose track of what is happening. And then spend days regreting it. Feeling a complete and utter wanker ! I am trying now though, i am doing my best to be good. I like being good to people. It makes me feel decent and also i enjoy it. in the right company, i find everything fun. This week i've smiled more then i have for a long, long time. And two people are to thank for that. I wish i could than them both. He knows, of course he does. That boy is like my emotional barrier, he keeps me safe so he does. She has everyright to murder me, but still tries to be nice to me ! I honestly don't get it ! I don't deserve shit ! But i get to hear nice things, and she should be thanked, and loved. But i don't have the balls to say that, or even show that. Except maybe here. Maybe ?
What the fuck else then... Could the apprentice be moving on from the master, and in doing so, taking some of his ideas with him. Surely not ! Well..... ? I'm not so sure, the banker, the one i was sure of, ever so sure. My first priority if you will... BOOM ! Looks to be gone, swept up in a cloud of him ! I don't get it, i'm happy about it though, i don't deserve another go at that game, and this guy is awesome. He's far more inclined to not fuck it up so all the best, i'm gonna make this happen for you sir, even if i'm lost in the muck doing it. But i'm not gonna be sitting on my ass waiting on any runner up prize. Not at all, when the shit hits the fan (And when does it never) there will be a new competition, and a new numero uno. What i couldn't possibly say ! But i'll cross that bridge only when the paths flooded, at the moment the land seems firm. But for how much longer ? Theres gotta be something coming soon.... A Big black cloud of mystery. Or atleast a sniff of a chase. That is all it takes, get me to engage, and i can still run with the best of them. I don't think my confidence has ever been this fucking low. I can barely look in the mirror without wanting to punch myself (Which i done by the way, and yes it does fucking hurt !) i've annoyed me. It's like everything that i had going for me has pissed of someplace, i'm no longer commanding attention, the interest, the questions have been replaced by a kinda nonchelance. Yes that's him, yeah we know and yup we think he's a cock too. Sums up the worlds approach to the Steve dilemma at this moment in hstory.
This can all of course change fast though, fast like the flash ! I just need a change of some sort, a slight rumble in the jungle. And all will be back to usual. I just wanna be able to say 'Steve is back' and that will be a god damm relief ! It has been too long now, i've just been a shadow of what i was, and this shit doesn't sit well. I suppose its time to find some confidence. Wait for it, it's coming... i know it ! It always is, lull before a storm. Perhaps ? I hope so, i need so. So time to introduce a little anarchy, time to let chaos come down on all this. And maybe, just maybe, it's that time again. To set the mother fucking house on fire. 1, 2, 3.... I'm trying.
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
Take My Breath Away, I'm A Supernova....
Update time. Nothing new really, just the same old, same old. There lies the problem, in having nothing groundbreaking occur it feels like a lot has happend. You live, you learn. Isn't that right. Aww who knows ! Basicly i'm fucking fed-up ... Again ! It's feeling like the constant tide has more or les just settled for now, i honestly can't see anything, or make that anyone (maybe) on the horizon. And that never bodes well for me does it ?
If things aren't in flux i'm fucked (could be a new motta that) and it's leading up to that. I had plans, great big fucking ambitious plans, for the start of this uni year, but by this point already, it's mostly fallen by the wayside. Everyone has found a groove, a rythm and a purpose. And i'm feeling kinda left out, i'm not soo much integral as external. I don't really need to be there now. I have nothing to pull me in. There are literaly people who want me to just fuck of, just get ghost. And yeah i deserve it ! i feel fucking bad. i say the wrong things, at the wrong times. I'm relentless in my constant pursuit of something better, the next big chapter so to speak. And in doing so maybe i do bulldose over the few people who i should stop and thank and then apologise too. The under-appreciated. I genuinally am kept sane by these mofo's and the only credit i ever give back is by walking all over them at every opportunity. Act first, feel bad later ! That's total bullshit isn't it ! All i can say is that i mean well, but in a fight between doing the right thing, and engaging my massive fucking ego, i constantly lose track of what is happening. And then spend days regreting it. Feeling a complete and utter wanker ! I am trying now though, i am doing my best to be good. I like being good to people. It makes me feel decent and also i enjoy it. in the right company, i find everything fun. This week i've smiled more then i have for a long, long time. And two people are to thank for that. I wish i could than them both. He knows, of course he does. That boy is like my emotional barrier, he keeps me safe so he does. She has everyright to murder me, but still tries to be nice to me ! I honestly don't get it ! I don't deserve shit ! But i get to hear nice things, and she should be thanked, and loved. But i don't have the balls to say that, or even show that. Except maybe here. Maybe ?
What the fuck else then... Could the apprentice be moving on from the master, and in doing so, taking some of his ideas with him. Surely not ! Well..... ? I'm not so sure, the banker, the one i was sure of, ever so sure. My first priority if you will... BOOM ! Looks to be gone, swept up in a cloud of him ! I don't get it, i'm happy about it though, i don't deserve another go at that game, and this guy is awesome. He's far more inclined to not fuck it up so all the best, i'm gonna make this happen for you sir, even if i'm lost in the muck doing it. But i'm not gonna be sitting on my ass waiting on any runner up prize. Not at all, when the shit hits the fan (And when does it never) there will be a new competition, and a new numero uno. What i couldn't possibly say ! But i'll cross that bridge only when the paths flooded, at the moment the land seems firm. But for how much longer ? Theres gotta be something coming soon.... A Big black cloud of mystery. Or atleast a sniff of a chase. That is all it takes, get me to engage, and i can still run with the best of them. I don't think my confidence has ever been this fucking low. I can barely look in the mirror without wanting to punch myself (Which i done by the way, and yes it does fucking hurt !) i've annoyed me. It's like everything that i had going for me has pissed of someplace, i'm no longer commanding attention, the interest, the questions have been replaced by a kinda nonchelance. Yes that's him, yeah we know and yup we think he's a cock too. Sums up the worlds approach to the Steve dilemma at this moment in hstory.
This can all of course change fast though, fast like the flash ! I just need a change of some sort, a slight rumble in the jungle. And all will be back to usual. I just wanna be able to say 'Steve is back' and that will be a god damm relief ! It has been too long now, i've just been a shadow of what i was, and this shit doesn't sit well. I suppose its time to find some confidence. Wait for it, it's coming... i know it ! It always is, lull before a storm. Perhaps ? I hope so, i need so. So time to introduce a little anarchy, time to let chaos come down on all this. And maybe, just maybe, it's that time again. To set the mother fucking house on fire. 1, 2, 3.... I'm trying.
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
If things aren't in flux i'm fucked (could be a new motta that) and it's leading up to that. I had plans, great big fucking ambitious plans, for the start of this uni year, but by this point already, it's mostly fallen by the wayside. Everyone has found a groove, a rythm and a purpose. And i'm feeling kinda left out, i'm not soo much integral as external. I don't really need to be there now. I have nothing to pull me in. There are literaly people who want me to just fuck of, just get ghost. And yeah i deserve it ! i feel fucking bad. i say the wrong things, at the wrong times. I'm relentless in my constant pursuit of something better, the next big chapter so to speak. And in doing so maybe i do bulldose over the few people who i should stop and thank and then apologise too. The under-appreciated. I genuinally am kept sane by these mofo's and the only credit i ever give back is by walking all over them at every opportunity. Act first, feel bad later ! That's total bullshit isn't it ! All i can say is that i mean well, but in a fight between doing the right thing, and engaging my massive fucking ego, i constantly lose track of what is happening. And then spend days regreting it. Feeling a complete and utter wanker ! I am trying now though, i am doing my best to be good. I like being good to people. It makes me feel decent and also i enjoy it. in the right company, i find everything fun. This week i've smiled more then i have for a long, long time. And two people are to thank for that. I wish i could than them both. He knows, of course he does. That boy is like my emotional barrier, he keeps me safe so he does. She has everyright to murder me, but still tries to be nice to me ! I honestly don't get it ! I don't deserve shit ! But i get to hear nice things, and she should be thanked, and loved. But i don't have the balls to say that, or even show that. Except maybe here. Maybe ?
What the fuck else then... Could the apprentice be moving on from the master, and in doing so, taking some of his ideas with him. Surely not ! Well..... ? I'm not so sure, the banker, the one i was sure of, ever so sure. My first priority if you will... BOOM ! Looks to be gone, swept up in a cloud of him ! I don't get it, i'm happy about it though, i don't deserve another go at that game, and this guy is awesome. He's far more inclined to not fuck it up so all the best, i'm gonna make this happen for you sir, even if i'm lost in the muck doing it. But i'm not gonna be sitting on my ass waiting on any runner up prize. Not at all, when the shit hits the fan (And when does it never) there will be a new competition, and a new numero uno. What i couldn't possibly say ! But i'll cross that bridge only when the paths flooded, at the moment the land seems firm. But for how much longer ? Theres gotta be something coming soon.... A Big black cloud of mystery. Or atleast a sniff of a chase. That is all it takes, get me to engage, and i can still run with the best of them. I don't think my confidence has ever been this fucking low. I can barely look in the mirror without wanting to punch myself (Which i done by the way, and yes it does fucking hurt !) i've annoyed me. It's like everything that i had going for me has pissed of someplace, i'm no longer commanding attention, the interest, the questions have been replaced by a kinda nonchelance. Yes that's him, yeah we know and yup we think he's a cock too. Sums up the worlds approach to the Steve dilemma at this moment in hstory.
This can all of course change fast though, fast like the flash ! I just need a change of some sort, a slight rumble in the jungle. And all will be back to usual. I just wanna be able to say 'Steve is back' and that will be a god damm relief ! It has been too long now, i've just been a shadow of what i was, and this shit doesn't sit well. I suppose its time to find some confidence. Wait for it, it's coming... i know it ! It always is, lull before a storm. Perhaps ? I hope so, i need so. So time to introduce a little anarchy, time to let chaos come down on all this. And maybe, just maybe, it's that time again. To set the mother fucking house on fire. 1, 2, 3.... I'm trying.
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
Friday, 24 September 2010
Satellite
The band satellite have written a song. That song is called 'Ring The Bells', and that song is being reprinted on the inside of the new TWLOHA (To write love on her arms) T-shirts that they are now sellling. The song itself is some kinda beautiful, and if you get the chance i'd ask everyone to check out the site, maybe buy a shirt, and spread the word. Enjoy dear readers :)
http://www.twloha.com/
'Find the words that make it right again
Calling birds help you make it through the night
It's just enough to find a way to open up once again
And learn to take all the beauty that's inside
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
Scream out loud
Until you feel again
And hear the sound of how to heal an achin heart
And those that know you most
Can help you to live again
So keep the close
As you're making your new start
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
The day you finally turn to dust
And finally hear your name
Brings colors that will never fade away
Sometimes the best in all of us
Can still break down and still give up on love
But it's never gone
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight' .
I'll be talkin to yaa XxX
http://www.twloha.com/
'Find the words that make it right again
Calling birds help you make it through the night
It's just enough to find a way to open up once again
And learn to take all the beauty that's inside
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
Scream out loud
Until you feel again
And hear the sound of how to heal an achin heart
And those that know you most
Can help you to live again
So keep the close
As you're making your new start
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
The day you finally turn to dust
And finally hear your name
Brings colors that will never fade away
Sometimes the best in all of us
Can still break down and still give up on love
But it's never gone
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight' .
I'll be talkin to yaa XxX
Satellite
The band satellite have written a song. That song is called 'Ring The Bells', and that song is being reprinted on the inside of the new TWLOHA (To write love on her arms) T-shirts that they are now sellling. The song itself is some kinda beautiful, and if you get the chance i'd ask everyone to check out the site, maybe buy a shirt, and spread the word. Enjoy dear readers :)
http://www.twloha.com/
'Find the words that make it right again
Calling birds help you make it through the night
It's just enough to find a way to open up once again
And learn to take all the beauty that's inside
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
Scream out loud
Until you feel again
And hear the sound of how to heal an achin heart
And those that know you most
Can help you to live again
So keep the close
As you're making your new start
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
The day you finally turn to dust
And finally hear your name
Brings colors that will never fade away
Sometimes the best in all of us
Can still break down and still give up on love
But it's never gone
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight' .
I'll be talkin to yaa XxX
http://www.twloha.com/
'Find the words that make it right again
Calling birds help you make it through the night
It's just enough to find a way to open up once again
And learn to take all the beauty that's inside
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
Scream out loud
Until you feel again
And hear the sound of how to heal an achin heart
And those that know you most
Can help you to live again
So keep the close
As you're making your new start
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight
The day you finally turn to dust
And finally hear your name
Brings colors that will never fade away
Sometimes the best in all of us
Can still break down and still give up on love
But it's never gone
Well ring the bells that lead you home
Cause the only truth I've ever known
Is that nothing ever hurts us more than love
So circle up your best friends
And we'll celebrate the way it ends
Atleast we live tonight
Atleast we live tonight' .
I'll be talkin to yaa XxX
Thursday, 23 September 2010
Better Weather
This is a song by the Scottish band Twin Atlantic. There is something entirely lovely about the lyrics. I don;t quite understand what it is, as the song itself itn't all that fantastic. But i suppose the words just really connect with me. The imagery that they conjure is something special and for this the band deserve praise.
'Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
And you take them across your eyes,
They help you remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
My science is the answer
You both can play a part in my game.
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
I've been making meadows
I've been making meadows
In the sky
In the sky
With the seeds,
From your eyes
From your eyes
Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
Take them across your eyes,
So you can remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.'
-Twin Atlantic
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
'Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
And you take them across your eyes,
They help you remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
My science is the answer
You both can play a part in my game.
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
I've been making meadows
I've been making meadows
In the sky
In the sky
With the seeds,
From your eyes
From your eyes
Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
Take them across your eyes,
So you can remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.'
-Twin Atlantic
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Better Weather
This is a song by the Scottish band Twin Atlantic. There is something entirely lovely about the lyrics. I don;t quite understand what it is, as the song itself itn't all that fantastic. But i suppose the words just really connect with me. The imagery that they conjure is something special and for this the band deserve praise.
'Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
And you take them across your eyes,
They help you remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
My science is the answer
You both can play a part in my game.
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
I've been making meadows
I've been making meadows
In the sky
In the sky
With the seeds,
From your eyes
From your eyes
Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
Take them across your eyes,
So you can remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.'
-Twin Atlantic
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
'Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
And you take them across your eyes,
They help you remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
And we'll forever be in disguise
We're pushing back in the shadows
To help us realize
My science is the answer
You both can play a part in my game.
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
On chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos, chaos rain
I've been making meadows
I've been making meadows
In the sky
In the sky
With the seeds,
From your eyes
From your eyes
Dearest forgetful,
Here are my guilty hands,
Take them across your eyes,
So you can remember
This is not a dream,
Could it get any better?
We'll wait out the winter nights,
And laugh along with the better weather.'
-Twin Atlantic
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
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