It's a friday and i'm not at school, not feeling great, just exhausted really, have had a crazy week, in terms of school stuff it's been mental, loads of work and stuff. Outside of all that, i've had my mind taken up by a lot of shit frankly, once again i've allowed myself to get caught up in all this emotional bull that kinda grates at you. You know what i mean, the constant wondering, like why am i being ignored ? Have i done something wrong ? What's gonna happen ? And most importantly, how the hell can everything be so differan compared to two weeks ago ? Seriously, it's like i'm dealing with differant people !
I'm fed-up with people changing on me, why can't people just stay the same, let everything work out. This is just so typical of a situation that i'd get into. 3 times now !! I don't know whether to laugh or cry. But this time though i'm making a decision to not let myself get all involved etc, i'm just gonna sit back now and see what happens, i just hope that somebody understand that i can be exactley the person that's needed. I really am a good person, just get lost in myself sometimes, and most importantly get lost in others, invest too much in them, and then just get torn apart by the let down at the end. But not this time...... NO !
Weird to think that a week ago today, things were fine really, i was pretty excited by were things were headed. And two weeks ago, i was ready to burst with happiness, i thought i was finally moving on and had met the right person... clearly i was wrong.
The dark clowds have moved away again, the sun is hiding, but it'll come back, i'll make sure of it and if that involves sacrificing something that i was desperate for, then so be it. Truth is, it's not been worth it, things just get too complicated.
I'm tired, confused, angry, upset, anxious, worried and desperate. Just another day in the life of me then..... Ti Amo Mucho.
I'll be talkin to yaa xxx
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