So once again i'n gonna do a little summary of this year. All i can say, first and foremost is this... Fuck me, it's been a little bit mental. All aboard :)
January:
So the year kicked off with a bang. Literally, from the moment the clock hit midnight the shit hit the fan. As would become a theme, i wasnt really aware, just doing what i felt like doing. Some people took it all too seriously, ahh well. But New Year was fantastic. And the month itself was good. I was led down a path in the first part that i thought was something possibly special, but then that just kinda petered out... Or so i thought. Uni kicked off again. This term would fly by though, and i have to admit it was nowhere near as brilliant as the first. Ahh well.
February:
This was a strange month. But good. The first half flew in without too much incident. A highlight being my good friend and relative Dave begining to stamp his mark upon my uni friends and starting the integration of my social circles. The first part of the month was spent basically with the uni group hanging around with each other in various wee events, nothing groundbreaking, but nice. The second half but brought about the events that led to the previously given up, becoming a reality, which was a very welcome turn of events.
March:
This was one of the top months. Fantastic sums it up. It built up slowly, with a lot of uni work to be done and dusted early on. This was completed without incident. So then the fun began. Paddy's day. One of the best nights of my life ! I can barely remember much of it, except it was class ! this was followed by a few nights, topped of by a mate (Sean's) 20th birthday. Well done him for lasting that long, but for me the night was pretty magical. I left with a girlfriend. The same girl who i had first felt something special with in January, having met her the previous October. We sorta fell back towards each other in February and by March we were together. Good stuff !
April:
Nothing exciting really happend in April to be honest. Just uni work and chilling with the girlfriend. Good fun though :) I'm really struggling to think of any major. So, we shall move swiftly on.....
May:
This was a bloody busy month so it was. aw a good few gigs, namely Hole and Rihanna. Hole was class, fully in love with courney Love, what a legend ! There was a few good parties too this month. My brother and my friend (and surrogate sister) Cherry/Sonia/Charlotta Reini, both turned 21 on the same weekend. That was good fun, i love a party. So for that reason, i got very drunk. The month finished up with me flying off to Florida, then onto New York on holiday.
June:
June stared in the USA with two weeks in Good 'ol Orlando. Me, mom, dad, Stuart and Natalie. A really nice two weeks, then on to New York for a few days. I really do love that city ! The world cup kicked of as well, but as per usual it was a bit shit, a total let down, and thus won't be mentioned any further. After coming home, i stayed for a week in gorgie with the then girlfriend, and just hung out, socialising with the usual suspects and generally just having a right good time. I then turned 18 which was a case of thank the fucking lord ! i couldn be arsed with havin to loan others ID's for much longer. I did realise however that after turning 18 people stop checking yoour age places. Therefore rendering it sorta pointless. That is an exagaration by the way, not a fair representation of Scottish licensing law.
July:
This was fine, right up until the final whistle. Again, it wasn't too busy, well not with exciting stuff anyway, just the usual kinda stuff. I was out & about a lot, drinking loads and in general just having a right good old giggle. Yay ! Also this month saw the dawning of the most powerful and feared pub quiz team in the land, it didnt appear fully formed, me, Dave and Greig started of with just a mindful of answers and no steady name, but it was the begining of something sorta brillinat. Right at the end however, the last day ! My life kinda hit a road block. Me and the girlfriend broke up ! i almost, sorta saw it coming but not enough to not still be upset by it. It really floored me and of course (with me being the enotional sort) i was left pretty devestated.
August:
This entire month was a write off. There was no chance i was gonna be up to much good, i was basically feeling kinda numb. The only proper highlight was seeing my favourite band Blink-182 in concert for the first time in six years. This gig serves as my release after all the bullshit that had preceeded it that month, i went fucking crazy, not my usual reserved, controlled self. And had a great fucking time. Also a friend reered her head again and became very helpful in getting over my winy, emo bullshit. so thanks for that.
September.
This month saw me go back to uni, the uni social group start up again, and Dave becoming a main player in it all, with greig also joining a few gatherings, so now my separate social locations had grouped together, quite useful :) All was good this month to be honest, i started to feel a lot better about everything and it all got pretty fun again, so cant really complain.
October:
Wow, this was a bit busy and kinda, sorta, just a little bit mental ! Went to London with el Dave to see lifehouse, amazing gig ! Few parties: Daves 19th and a kick ass halloween costume party which we all got done up brillinatly for (check a few posts ago.) Dave neded up with a girlfriend, who is absolutely lovely, so well done him, i'm delighted for him :) Me on the other didnt get a new girlfriend. I did kinda get involved with the rooomate of two pals, although purely in a friendly manner at this point, although it wouldnt remain like that, due to a lapse in my resistance haha. MY closenss to her caused issues, i wasnt supposed to spend time with her, there was anger and a lot of jealousy, i just remained aloof, inoring the trouble that was brewing around me, and the ignoring the manner in which my actionss were starting to cause problems beyond even my limits.
November:
Ok, ok, i fucked the fucking roommate ! That basically sums this month up, it's all i heard at te time, and all i've heard since ! I'm through apologising for it though, i only did what came natural, yeah it was daft but i defy any single guy to have said no. End of story ! Apart from that this month was decent. a lot of drama was going on, mostly caused by me, but i managed to stay clear of too much trouble as others had to pick up the peices, yeah it's a 'lil mean, but hey, gotta do it !
December:
This month has been rather good. Ruined by having a job like, but atleast i've earned a fair whack of cash ! i've been working at Next for those interested, actually a decent place to work, staff get treated really well, but the clothes themselves are proper shite ! so i'd not recommend buying anything from the store ! haha. What else... Ehh, christmass was chilled, but nice. A family affair. I've got a large and really good fun family though so it's always a laugh. It's still December until midnight though, so hopefully still some good times to come :)
So there you have it. It's been an up and down year. All in all i'd say good though. The good was as good as it get's the bad, was bottom of the barrel stuff, but as always, i survive, and i bounce back.
A few thankyou's are in order.
Dad,
Mom,
Stuart,
Dave,
Natalie,
Molly (my Dog),
My entire uni group of friends,
And a special mention to a certain Lisa Reini. Over one year we have experienced every side of each other. Every mood, every feeling, every fight, every fall. For awhile we were as close as it get's. Now we are quite distant. But we are both still there, as it should be. So thank you for being this year for me. For making it everythin it is, and leaving me with the memories of everything it was. Thanks for the memories my dear :)
Good night, and good luck !
I'll Be Talkin to Yaa xxx
Friday, 31 December 2010
2010- A Year in Review
So once again i'n gonna do a little summary of this year. All i can say, first and foremost is this... Fuck me, it's been a little bit mental. All aboard :)
January:
So the year kicked off with a bang. Literally, from the moment the clock hit midnight the shit hit the fan. As would become a theme, i wasnt really aware, just doing what i felt like doing. Some people took it all too seriously, ahh well. But New Year was fantastic. And the month itself was good. I was led down a path in the first part that i thought was something possibly special, but then that just kinda petered out... Or so i thought. Uni kicked off again. This term would fly by though, and i have to admit it was nowhere near as brilliant as the first. Ahh well.
February:
This was a strange month. But good. The first half flew in without too much incident. A highlight being my good friend and relative Dave begining to stamp his mark upon my uni friends and starting the integration of my social circles. The first part of the month was spent basically with the uni group hanging around with each other in various wee events, nothing groundbreaking, but nice. The second half but brought about the events that led to the previously given up, becoming a reality, which was a very welcome turn of events.
March:
This was one of the top months. Fantastic sums it up. It built up slowly, with a lot of uni work to be done and dusted early on. This was completed without incident. So then the fun began. Paddy's day. One of the best nights of my life ! I can barely remember much of it, except it was class ! this was followed by a few nights, topped of by a mate (Sean's) 20th birthday. Well done him for lasting that long, but for me the night was pretty magical. I left with a girlfriend. The same girl who i had first felt something special with in January, having met her the previous October. We sorta fell back towards each other in February and by March we were together. Good stuff !
April:
Nothing exciting really happend in April to be honest. Just uni work and chilling with the girlfriend. Good fun though :) I'm really struggling to think of any major. So, we shall move swiftly on.....
May:
This was a bloody busy month so it was. aw a good few gigs, namely Hole and Rihanna. Hole was class, fully in love with courney Love, what a legend ! There was a few good parties too this month. My brother and my friend (and surrogate sister) Cherry/Sonia/Charlotta Reini, both turned 21 on the same weekend. That was good fun, i love a party. So for that reason, i got very drunk. The month finished up with me flying off to Florida, then onto New York on holiday.
June:
June stared in the USA with two weeks in Good 'ol Orlando. Me, mom, dad, Stuart and Natalie. A really nice two weeks, then on to New York for a few days. I really do love that city ! The world cup kicked of as well, but as per usual it was a bit shit, a total let down, and thus won't be mentioned any further. After coming home, i stayed for a week in gorgie with the then girlfriend, and just hung out, socialising with the usual suspects and generally just having a right good time. I then turned 18 which was a case of thank the fucking lord ! i couldn be arsed with havin to loan others ID's for much longer. I did realise however that after turning 18 people stop checking yoour age places. Therefore rendering it sorta pointless. That is an exagaration by the way, not a fair representation of Scottish licensing law.
July:
This was fine, right up until the final whistle. Again, it wasn't too busy, well not with exciting stuff anyway, just the usual kinda stuff. I was out & about a lot, drinking loads and in general just having a right good old giggle. Yay ! Also this month saw the dawning of the most powerful and feared pub quiz team in the land, it didnt appear fully formed, me, Dave and Greig started of with just a mindful of answers and no steady name, but it was the begining of something sorta brillinat. Right at the end however, the last day ! My life kinda hit a road block. Me and the girlfriend broke up ! i almost, sorta saw it coming but not enough to not still be upset by it. It really floored me and of course (with me being the enotional sort) i was left pretty devestated.
August:
This entire month was a write off. There was no chance i was gonna be up to much good, i was basically feeling kinda numb. The only proper highlight was seeing my favourite band Blink-182 in concert for the first time in six years. This gig serves as my release after all the bullshit that had preceeded it that month, i went fucking crazy, not my usual reserved, controlled self. And had a great fucking time. Also a friend reered her head again and became very helpful in getting over my winy, emo bullshit. so thanks for that.
September.
This month saw me go back to uni, the uni social group start up again, and Dave becoming a main player in it all, with greig also joining a few gatherings, so now my separate social locations had grouped together, quite useful :) All was good this month to be honest, i started to feel a lot better about everything and it all got pretty fun again, so cant really complain.
October:
Wow, this was a bit busy and kinda, sorta, just a little bit mental ! Went to London with el Dave to see lifehouse, amazing gig ! Few parties: Daves 19th and a kick ass halloween costume party which we all got done up brillinatly for (check a few posts ago.) Dave neded up with a girlfriend, who is absolutely lovely, so well done him, i'm delighted for him :) Me on the other didnt get a new girlfriend. I did kinda get involved with the rooomate of two pals, although purely in a friendly manner at this point, although it wouldnt remain like that, due to a lapse in my resistance haha. MY closenss to her caused issues, i wasnt supposed to spend time with her, there was anger and a lot of jealousy, i just remained aloof, inoring the trouble that was brewing around me, and the ignoring the manner in which my actionss were starting to cause problems beyond even my limits.
November:
Ok, ok, i fucked the fucking roommate ! That basically sums this month up, it's all i heard at te time, and all i've heard since ! I'm through apologising for it though, i only did what came natural, yeah it was daft but i defy any single guy to have said no. End of story ! Apart from that this month was decent. a lot of drama was going on, mostly caused by me, but i managed to stay clear of too much trouble as others had to pick up the peices, yeah it's a 'lil mean, but hey, gotta do it !
December:
This month has been rather good. Ruined by having a job like, but atleast i've earned a fair whack of cash ! i've been working at Next for those interested, actually a decent place to work, staff get treated really well, but the clothes themselves are proper shite ! so i'd not recommend buying anything from the store ! haha. What else... Ehh, christmass was chilled, but nice. A family affair. I've got a large and really good fun family though so it's always a laugh. It's still December until midnight though, so hopefully still some good times to come :)
So there you have it. It's been an up and down year. All in all i'd say good though. The good was as good as it get's the bad, was bottom of the barrel stuff, but as always, i survive, and i bounce back.
A few thankyou's are in order.
Dad,
Mom,
Stuart,
Dave,
Natalie,
Molly (my Dog),
My entire uni group of friends,
And a special mention to a certain Lisa Reini. Over one year we have experienced every side of each other. Every mood, every feeling, every fight, every fall. For awhile we were as close as it get's. Now we are quite distant. But we are both still there, as it should be. So thank you for being this year for me. For making it everythin it is, and leaving me with the memories of everything it was. Thanks for the memories my dear :)
Good night, and good luck !
I'll Be Talkin to Yaa xxx
January:
So the year kicked off with a bang. Literally, from the moment the clock hit midnight the shit hit the fan. As would become a theme, i wasnt really aware, just doing what i felt like doing. Some people took it all too seriously, ahh well. But New Year was fantastic. And the month itself was good. I was led down a path in the first part that i thought was something possibly special, but then that just kinda petered out... Or so i thought. Uni kicked off again. This term would fly by though, and i have to admit it was nowhere near as brilliant as the first. Ahh well.
February:
This was a strange month. But good. The first half flew in without too much incident. A highlight being my good friend and relative Dave begining to stamp his mark upon my uni friends and starting the integration of my social circles. The first part of the month was spent basically with the uni group hanging around with each other in various wee events, nothing groundbreaking, but nice. The second half but brought about the events that led to the previously given up, becoming a reality, which was a very welcome turn of events.
March:
This was one of the top months. Fantastic sums it up. It built up slowly, with a lot of uni work to be done and dusted early on. This was completed without incident. So then the fun began. Paddy's day. One of the best nights of my life ! I can barely remember much of it, except it was class ! this was followed by a few nights, topped of by a mate (Sean's) 20th birthday. Well done him for lasting that long, but for me the night was pretty magical. I left with a girlfriend. The same girl who i had first felt something special with in January, having met her the previous October. We sorta fell back towards each other in February and by March we were together. Good stuff !
April:
Nothing exciting really happend in April to be honest. Just uni work and chilling with the girlfriend. Good fun though :) I'm really struggling to think of any major. So, we shall move swiftly on.....
May:
This was a bloody busy month so it was. aw a good few gigs, namely Hole and Rihanna. Hole was class, fully in love with courney Love, what a legend ! There was a few good parties too this month. My brother and my friend (and surrogate sister) Cherry/Sonia/Charlotta Reini, both turned 21 on the same weekend. That was good fun, i love a party. So for that reason, i got very drunk. The month finished up with me flying off to Florida, then onto New York on holiday.
June:
June stared in the USA with two weeks in Good 'ol Orlando. Me, mom, dad, Stuart and Natalie. A really nice two weeks, then on to New York for a few days. I really do love that city ! The world cup kicked of as well, but as per usual it was a bit shit, a total let down, and thus won't be mentioned any further. After coming home, i stayed for a week in gorgie with the then girlfriend, and just hung out, socialising with the usual suspects and generally just having a right good time. I then turned 18 which was a case of thank the fucking lord ! i couldn be arsed with havin to loan others ID's for much longer. I did realise however that after turning 18 people stop checking yoour age places. Therefore rendering it sorta pointless. That is an exagaration by the way, not a fair representation of Scottish licensing law.
July:
This was fine, right up until the final whistle. Again, it wasn't too busy, well not with exciting stuff anyway, just the usual kinda stuff. I was out & about a lot, drinking loads and in general just having a right good old giggle. Yay ! Also this month saw the dawning of the most powerful and feared pub quiz team in the land, it didnt appear fully formed, me, Dave and Greig started of with just a mindful of answers and no steady name, but it was the begining of something sorta brillinat. Right at the end however, the last day ! My life kinda hit a road block. Me and the girlfriend broke up ! i almost, sorta saw it coming but not enough to not still be upset by it. It really floored me and of course (with me being the enotional sort) i was left pretty devestated.
August:
This entire month was a write off. There was no chance i was gonna be up to much good, i was basically feeling kinda numb. The only proper highlight was seeing my favourite band Blink-182 in concert for the first time in six years. This gig serves as my release after all the bullshit that had preceeded it that month, i went fucking crazy, not my usual reserved, controlled self. And had a great fucking time. Also a friend reered her head again and became very helpful in getting over my winy, emo bullshit. so thanks for that.
September.
This month saw me go back to uni, the uni social group start up again, and Dave becoming a main player in it all, with greig also joining a few gatherings, so now my separate social locations had grouped together, quite useful :) All was good this month to be honest, i started to feel a lot better about everything and it all got pretty fun again, so cant really complain.
October:
Wow, this was a bit busy and kinda, sorta, just a little bit mental ! Went to London with el Dave to see lifehouse, amazing gig ! Few parties: Daves 19th and a kick ass halloween costume party which we all got done up brillinatly for (check a few posts ago.) Dave neded up with a girlfriend, who is absolutely lovely, so well done him, i'm delighted for him :) Me on the other didnt get a new girlfriend. I did kinda get involved with the rooomate of two pals, although purely in a friendly manner at this point, although it wouldnt remain like that, due to a lapse in my resistance haha. MY closenss to her caused issues, i wasnt supposed to spend time with her, there was anger and a lot of jealousy, i just remained aloof, inoring the trouble that was brewing around me, and the ignoring the manner in which my actionss were starting to cause problems beyond even my limits.
November:
Ok, ok, i fucked the fucking roommate ! That basically sums this month up, it's all i heard at te time, and all i've heard since ! I'm through apologising for it though, i only did what came natural, yeah it was daft but i defy any single guy to have said no. End of story ! Apart from that this month was decent. a lot of drama was going on, mostly caused by me, but i managed to stay clear of too much trouble as others had to pick up the peices, yeah it's a 'lil mean, but hey, gotta do it !
December:
This month has been rather good. Ruined by having a job like, but atleast i've earned a fair whack of cash ! i've been working at Next for those interested, actually a decent place to work, staff get treated really well, but the clothes themselves are proper shite ! so i'd not recommend buying anything from the store ! haha. What else... Ehh, christmass was chilled, but nice. A family affair. I've got a large and really good fun family though so it's always a laugh. It's still December until midnight though, so hopefully still some good times to come :)
So there you have it. It's been an up and down year. All in all i'd say good though. The good was as good as it get's the bad, was bottom of the barrel stuff, but as always, i survive, and i bounce back.
A few thankyou's are in order.
Dad,
Mom,
Stuart,
Dave,
Natalie,
Molly (my Dog),
My entire uni group of friends,
And a special mention to a certain Lisa Reini. Over one year we have experienced every side of each other. Every mood, every feeling, every fight, every fall. For awhile we were as close as it get's. Now we are quite distant. But we are both still there, as it should be. So thank you for being this year for me. For making it everythin it is, and leaving me with the memories of everything it was. Thanks for the memories my dear :)
Good night, and good luck !
I'll Be Talkin to Yaa xxx
Saturday, 25 December 2010
Friday, 24 December 2010
Phones !!!!!
Right, got to be getting this of my chest ! I Have a Blackberry, called Barry, Barry the Blackberry, and guess what it's pish !
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Phones !!!!!
Right, got to be getting this of my chest ! I Have a Blackberry, called Barry, Barry the Blackberry, and guess what it's pish !
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
As phones go, it does everything i could ever want it to. I can call, text, play games, facebook, twitter, Email, applications, music, all fucking sorts of stuff. But i just cant trust it. Honestly, it's just not dependable. I'm constantly on edge fearing that it's just not gonna work. And that isn't a rare occurance. There so glitchy, temperamental and odd. It just does weird things constantly. Deleting numbers, texts, files, all sorts ! Wits end !
Now contrast this to my previous phone. It was a sony, named sonnie, sonnie the sony. And it never gave me any trouble. Three years i had it (yes that long) and it was always brillinat. Doing whatever i asked of it with the minimul fuss. That was untill someone buried it in sand and sorta, kinda, just a little bit, ruined it, but even then it was better then most cellular phones ! I loved that thing. Even though the charger has wrecked and hadd to physically held inside it to work. Aaaaah, those were the days ! haha. I honestly just wish all phones were like that though. Solid, dependable and trustworthy ! I still have that phone like, just don't use it, but i am seriously considering going back.
The world should follow me in my campaign against smartphones !
But you wont will you ?
Oooh welll. Worth a go anyway :)
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Thursday, 23 December 2010
Long Gone & Moved On
'When's the day you start again
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Long Gone & Moved On
'When's the day you start again
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And its not me that you're with
Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real
I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on
eh eh, oh oh
eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on'
Thanks To The Script. Great Song.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Just A Funny Picture.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Just A Funny Picture.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Last Christmas...
I keep saying i've gotta stop living in the past. But sometimes it's inevitable. Things trigger memories y'know. How can i just ignore that, it goes against everything i am. I'm a sucker for nostalgia. Looking back is less scary then looking forward. And far more comforting. Especially in those moments where just for a second you actually manage to trick yourself into feeling exactly how you felt back then. That's the moments to savour, the good stuff right there. A moment in your life were you know that in month or years you will be looking back and enjoying it again and again.
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Last Christmas...
I keep saying i've gotta stop living in the past. But sometimes it's inevitable. Things trigger memories y'know. How can i just ignore that, it goes against everything i am. I'm a sucker for nostalgia. Looking back is less scary then looking forward. And far more comforting. Especially in those moments where just for a second you actually manage to trick yourself into feeling exactly how you felt back then. That's the moments to savour, the good stuff right there. A moment in your life were you know that in month or years you will be looking back and enjoying it again and again.
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Like A Rolling Stone
Some people can't help but fire in too heavy handed. How was I to guess that she was gonna be this contradictory ? She wears promiscuity like a badge of honour, but then declares herself heartbroken. For fuck sake. I've always got to find some drama don't I. Even when I'm trying to avoid it, I get caught up !
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Like A Rolling Stone
Some people can't help but fire in too heavy handed. How was I to guess that she was gonna be this contradictory ? She wears promiscuity like a badge of honour, but then declares herself heartbroken. For fuck sake. I've always got to find some drama don't I. Even when I'm trying to avoid it, I get caught up !
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Thursday, 2 December 2010
I-Empire
Selfish.....
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
I-Empire
Selfish.....
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
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