'And now this could be the last of all the rides we take,
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Thursday, 25 November 2010
Kid's From Yesterday
'And now this could be the last of all the rides we take,
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Tuesday, 23 November 2010
The Backseat
'In the backseats of burned out cars.
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
The Backseat
'In the backseats of burned out cars.
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
In the disenchantment lane.
The ideal angels twist and turn, ask forgiveness for future mistakes.
But you and I we've been through this.
Maybe 100 times before.
Always hitching rides with strangers.
Papa warned us about before
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And in the wild desert sun, we drove straight on through the night.
We rode a fever out of Boston.
Dreamed of California nights.
Come July, we'll ride the Ferris Wheel.
Go round and round and round.
And If you never let me go, well I will never let you down.
But you know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
And in the backseat, we're just trying to find some room to breathe.
And these cowboys all go crazy in the heat.
Chasing the lights in all the girls
Along the Santa Anna streets that they're just dying to meet.
It meant nothing to me.
You know the summer always brought it.
That wild and reckless breeze.
And in the backseat we're just trying to find some room for our knees.
Hey!'
-The Gaslight Anthem
I'll Be Talking To Ya xxx
Friday, 19 November 2010
A Big Pile Of Mess
If the question was where does steve Runciman want to be at the moment the answer would be this: Sitting somewere dark, someplace in the city, in the open, hidden away, on his own, watching everybody. Sounds gloomy as fuck, but that's exactly were I am right now as I write this, I'm hiding basically, from everything and everyone. Nothing is going to plan, my strategy for the year is well destroyed, I'm just improvising now, because everything is fucked up. And I really don't know what to do. For the first time in a long time I'm scared.
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
A Big Pile Of Mess
If the question was where does steve Runciman want to be at the moment the answer would be this: Sitting somewere dark, someplace in the city, in the open, hidden away, on his own, watching everybody. Sounds gloomy as fuck, but that's exactly were I am right now as I write this, I'm hiding basically, from everything and everyone. Nothing is going to plan, my strategy for the year is well destroyed, I'm just improvising now, because everything is fucked up. And I really don't know what to do. For the first time in a long time I'm scared.
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
It's just a case of everything being so uncertain now, the safety net has been removed, and If I fall now I am gone for good. What else can I do, yeah I fucked up, but I tried so fucking hard to make things better, but I knew that it wasn't going to work out well, despite how much I might have wanted it too. And everyone else seemed to think this aswell, although to some of them my posistion was shakey and my motives unclear, which is fair enough, they are all entitled to an opinion, even if it was completely wrong. I ended up doing what I had to. I done it with dignity, and fairness, I done nothing wrong, so for this I hope to be treated fairly, let's be honest, nobody gives a shit anyway, I think alchohol can just lead to some looking for a conflict.
But were am I left standing. Socially, I hope to re-engage properly, but it'll be difficult, there's huge gaps in the group now, this isn't the same world I lived in last year, it's almost stopped being fun now, it's all gotten too dark, and dragged down by individual quarrels and now it's fractured. I can't fix it, but hopefully it'll work out soon enough. I see signs of that, which is nice.
My biggest concern is how to feel right again. I'm constantly fighting what feels like a hole in my stomach, a sense of emptiness, which although unwarranted is totally inescapable. So what am I gonna do. This time last year I was first getting proper involved in what would prove to be a life changing set of events. This year it all feels numb. The excitement and feeling that it was all to happen, anything could be achieved, that I had 12 months ago has completely gone. I would give anything to grab that back, to be the person I was then. Even to relive all those months, some of the most amazing monks of my life. But I just can't. I'm a shadow of who I was then, completely exhausted, played out. I need to new challenge, a new achievement, but it can't be easy, I have to fight for it ! I just don't know what, who, or how yet ! Something does always come up mind, maybe I won't have to wait. I've dealt with enough in the last few weeks to say that I'm tired of drama ! I just want to relax for awhile, let the others share the excitement, I just want to take a few weeks out the game. Although, in fairness, I'll not really be away, just not quite as active. Give me till Christmas, then I'll come back better then ever ! All it takes is a plan, and a good night.
I'm going to the dark....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Sunday, 14 November 2010
The All Time Sad (But Good) Playlist:
10. The River- Bruce Springsteen
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
The All Time Sad (But Good) Playlist:
10. The River- Bruce Springsteen
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
9. With Or Without You- U2
8. Where'd You Go- Fort Minor
7. A Year From Now- Across Five April's
6. Broken- Lifehouse
5. Nothingman- Pearl Jam
4. Pale Blue Eyes- The Velvet Underground
3. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You- Heart
2. Dont Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith
1. Drops Of Jupiter- Train
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
Lyric Of The Day
With thanks to miss Taylor Swift-
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Lyric Of The Day
With thanks to miss Taylor Swift-
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
'So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe,
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Breakdown In Something Less Than Ordinary
Now that we don't speak I'm realising how important you were. Sure, I had an idea, course I fucking did, but it takes time to heal the problem and too fully understand the root of it.
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Breakdown In Something Less Than Ordinary
Now that we don't speak I'm realising how important you were. Sure, I had an idea, course I fucking did, but it takes time to heal the problem and too fully understand the root of it.
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
What's the root of what then ? Well I'm not really that sure am I, but. I do know that (like the one who came before you) there's been an unknown impact, deep set y'kno, that isn't going away. It's scaring me, but weirdly comforting ain't it. Well for me it is.
It's just your names been brought up a few times recently, people be stopping to pretend you don't exist, obviously we're at that stage now, that people think I'm ok to bring her up. Which I am, of course, never haven't been either, but just funny how time forces folk to regulate there choice of topic in chat. Really is....
But yeah, back to what I be saying earlier ! We don't speak ! We were supposed too, it was gonna be special, 'best friends' me and her, you and me, whatever. But it hasn't came out that way has it ? Sure I might of freaked out couple 'o month back and caused some Bother, but that was resolved, I think. No, I know ! But now it's kinda like we don't exist to each other. I cannot and will not ever blame the good lady herself for this, as she be practically blameless, it's just life is all, but that doesn't make it any less weird !
I suppose it's normal this, to sorta drift away from each other, draw apart. Not that I want it like, but what can I do ? It's happning, plain & simple. Nootch ! I just get scared that you're forgetting ? Forgetting just how good we were, and yeah maybe you're right, that I would have been easier to have just always remained friends and never been together, but isn't that always the case ? Because every good thing has an expiration date, and the more special it is, the quicker it has to burn out, and we just couldn't keep re-igniting it baby, there was too much of real fucking life between us !
But I do wonder what she thinks ? What's in your head ? Who knows, you know and only you, not even the ohers who think they know actually do, I get you enough to be sure of that, your a living, breathing, walking contradiction. But so am I, so it sure as shot isn't the worse thing to be. I just want to know if you ever think back ? Do I still make the autobiography ? Do you remember walking the streets on that cold night in July, on the royal mile, on a pretend first date ? Do you rember talking about 30 years from now, our Eifal tower plan ? Probably not, but I'd smile if you did. I still care M'dear and always will, atleast we'll always have Paris ! Well probably not, but you never know I suppose.
'The past is only the future with the lights on.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xXx
Friday, 12 November 2010
Reckless Abandon
I think this song sums up my life better then anything i've ever seen, heard, or even read.
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Reckless Abandon
I think this song sums up my life better then anything i've ever seen, heard, or even read.
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Of course it was written by Blink-182 !
'On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large
Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done
On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Sunday, 7 November 2010
It's Hard To Be a Saint.
Turn on the lights,
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
It's Hard To Be a Saint.
Turn on the lights,
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Can you see me ?
Or am i surrounded by darkness,
Not for the first time.
Between the clocks something changed,
Night turned to day,
But i was left behind.
So drag me out the shadows,
Light me up if you wish,
Somebody, anybody, help me.
Fix what's broken and hear my apologies,
Who can be a Saint in the city,
Who even wants to try ?
It's hard to be a saint,
With the devil inside me,
And who wants to be exorcised,
When real life is just so,
Boring........
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
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