A Love Struck Romeo

I'm stupid, i know i am ! But, i feel that theirs no way 'round it. I honoustly do feel that i'll always love her. I seen her yesterday, and the two of us were so relaxed and comfertable together it actually felt like it was last year, i don't know why, but it was just like for whatever reason yesterday we both needed to feel together or somethin, we both have our reasons i suppose. I mean we even had our arms around each other at a point, it was surreal.

I'm not unhappy with the situation though, i know that it doesn't really mean anything like ! But it's sorta comforting to know that i can feel so strongly and that in her case i might aways. It's almost a powerful feeling, i know tht is a daft thing to say, but it's true ! I know that in this scenario, no matter what i'll always be there and more importantly i know that i would do anything to help, weird thing to be happy about eh ! Haha.

I just feel that short of being physically beaten over the head, with a very wet fish, nothing could make me feel any sort of resentment toward her. I don't know myself as well as i should, but.. this i'm sure of ! This is just gonna be a long runnnig thing. Like a feeling that i'll have forever, or until the space were it's currently living in, is replaced by something differant. Can't see that happening anytime soon though, i don't want it too. And even when it does happen, i know that i'll still feel strongly, for sure. No questions asked ! I'm glad of it.

The next few weeks should be interestin, a lot of things have been moving towards this point for a while now, and with the leave of prolonged absense looming, decisions are going to have to be made, it'll be made clear who realyl does give a fuck and who's just in it for selfish reasons. Fun, fun, fun ! It'll be somewhat mental though, must be said. Just aslong as nothing drastic happens, everybody should get out of it all well and good, and the hard work can start next season, so to speech.

Christ sake, this a new record for me even !! A scheme that is going to have a payoff in between 4-8 months ! haha. At least nobody can accuse me of being unprepared. Just mix it with the right degree of randomness and spontaniousity and i'm all set ! Oooh i do love playing games....

So all that's left to say is...

I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx