Last Christmas...

I keep saying i've gotta stop living in the past. But sometimes it's inevitable. Things trigger memories y'know. How can i just ignore that, it goes against everything i am. I'm a sucker for nostalgia. Looking back is less scary then looking forward. And far more comforting. Especially in those moments where just for a second you actually manage to trick yourself into feeling exactly how you felt back then. That's the moments to savour, the good stuff right there. A moment in your life were you know that in month or years you will be looking back and enjoying it again and again.

This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.

It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)

So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.

Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.

I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx