Fun.. With a side order of sadness.

Last night was great. Her Courtship was in town so we sauntered along to see the film Dorian gray. Was pretty good to be honest, based around a novel written by Oscar Wilde so it's coming from pretty impressive source material anyways ! Haha. Ben Barnes is too pretty to really be a guy aswel, that kinda scared me.

The ghost of great days passed was on fantastic form aswel. Loooked amazing too, despite wearin a dumb preppy as shit jacket, but it sorta combined with the glasses to create a kinda sexy, naughty teacher look, which is never a bad thing.

But yeah, watchin the film was cool, we've not done that in far too long, nice to see she's still in the habit of clinging to me pretty much for the full lenth of the movie aswel, despite it really not being that scary. Oooh wells. She's cute Lolz

Walked up to a friends house afterwards for a party, the walk took the best part of half hour to be honest but that was cool, the chat was a-a-awesome.... Seriously is one of the few people i feel comfertable enough around to just talk honestly with. She also insisted on running for a while, despite being in high heels, madness but really rather funny. Not a fan of my jacket neither she was though, the criticsms that were thrown at it really did make sense though, it suddenly feels less of a great jacket, to the attic it goes for a wee while, until i work out a new approach to it.

The party we were at sucked, but i seen loads of folk i havn't in ages which was alrite i guess. Police came though so we had to leave, but i wasn't too bothered, was ready to leave anyways. Walked from there back down to inverleith to take her home. Accompanied by an old mate of mine who was quite drunk and came with. He was quite leechy though and that sorta pissed me off, although she dealt with it well, just went along with it, didn't cause a scene or nothing. She probably quite enjoyed it too, she likes the attention really, her tank top was gathering her a fair bit of that aswel fuck sake haha.

All in all a decent night, however walking home, and today i've been feeling kinda down about the whole thing. It's like.. I'm happy with the scenario the now, and it's probably the best option, almost certaintly infact, but i can't help but wish it was more then this, the highs and lows of my life really are based around how things are playin with her, so i suppose it's only natural that i want to spend more time then ican with her.

I have some thinking to do....


i'll be talkin to ya xx