The last week has been a bad one. My perfect start has taken a complete thump in the head. Well, the social part anyway. I suppose the reasons behind it are linked to the events of last friday. The the ways things ended up, espicially the eventual sleeping arrangements have caused a bit of problems, mainly due to awkwardness. Not on my part though, mainly due to the other person in reference.
Everything else is just fine to be honest, just this little issue is making things a bit difficult. Certain scenarios you can just tell are laced with tension and stuff. The differnace between this week and last (or really every week since i started) is mental. All the wee things that had been set-up have just fallen down.... BANG !!
I'm not gonna moan about this shit though. Not at all, in all fairness i was kinda looking for a chance to fuck things up like this. Things were going to well. It was time to slam the self destruct button ! If anything i got exactley what i wanted. I'm feelin somethin outwith the norm again. This sorta bullshit spurs me on. Inspires y'know, gets me riled up. It's a good thing that. I work hard when i'm like this.
So overall i'm kinda pissed yet pleased with whats become of things. I don't regret my actions at all, maybe just the follow up. Florida next week though !! Woop.
It's just a damm shame , that in order to get to were i wanted to be, i've had to sacrifice what could have been a good friendship, and yeah okay, maybe more. Atleast it was a nice few weeks. And one one nice night.
Fuck me i'm an idiot. Shit...
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
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