What Is Certain ?

What in this world is certain ?

We'll live, die, laugh, cry... What else ? Of importance anyway ?

If everything else just happens by chance, how much should they really mean ? Why do let ourselves be molded and shaped by events, which essentually are random. Could we not just arrange for our lives to go in one certain direction, plan the entire thin out and go for it ? Obviously not, but why is that the case ?

Nothing makes sense !!

I'm uncertain.....

Not in a negative way, sorta a nervous excited way ! I've a dilemma, i think i might have a decision to make, but i'm not really sure if :

1. The decision is actually there to be made at all.
2. If it is my choice to make.
3. If i really want what it's offering.

.........

It's true that, what i said before, that we only realise what we had was so good once it's gone. So i need to decide. What will i realise after making this possible choice. I Don't want to be regretting anything else down the line, theirs enough of them to fill a huge closet, with alot more then just skeletons. But what if i ruin the good thing that's going on now by just doing what i do best... Ahhhh Dilema !

I hate feelings sometimes, but i crave them ! They always lead me to doing something stupid !

Oooh well, let's just see.

Who cares eh ? It won't last, the only certainty is that at some stage their will be tears, but who'll there from is anyones guess....

What is certain then ?

That i'm 16 and frankly know far too much about what i shouldn't. Life is a fucker sometimes, it's never simple.

But i'm happy, i know that,

And at least that's something !

Yeah.....

I'll be talkin to yaa xxx