Sometimes, a similar situation arrises, but with a slight differance. The general atmosphere and feeling about the entire thing is changed. The last two weeks i have been feeling that. Just a change in the wind so to speech, an idea, an inkling that maybe, just maybe, this time things might be for real.
Of course, nothing is confirmed or even talked over, but i just know that a understanding was reached. What was said, was so close to being an open statement that the feeling and message is there. Just waiting to be acted upon. 10 months ...... The cash incentive makes that possible.
The chat tonight, started off as just another innocent phone call, but like fridays effort, it quickly spiralled into something more. It's exciting and really makes me realise just why this is all so important to me in the first place.
I made up a fairy tale ! I was asked to talk about a Prince and a Princess. The subtle indication wasn't lost on me. I could see the path i was being carted down, i didn't fully give into the notion, i left it just open ended enough to play to my strengths.
The encounter has put a smile on my face, the uncertainty is less prevailing, cause deep down i know it's meant to be. I Can't confirm or define soul mates, but i think i can see the appeal, and know how it must feel .
-' I'm going to the top, i'm gonna be somebody.'
-' I know you are. And im going to hold your hand all the way up there, and i promise i won't let it go.. Ever'
-' I want you up there. I want you there always.'
Good night dreamers and romantics. We'll see when we get there.
I'll be talkin to ya xx
Sunday, 30 August 2009
Five Hour Phone Conversations
Sometimes, a similar situation arrises, but with a slight differance. The general atmosphere and feeling about the entire thing is changed. The last two weeks i have been feeling that. Just a change in the wind so to speech, an idea, an inkling that maybe, just maybe, this time things might be for real.
Of course, nothing is confirmed or even talked over, but i just know that a understanding was reached. What was said, was so close to being an open statement that the feeling and message is there. Just waiting to be acted upon. 10 months ...... The cash incentive makes that possible.
The chat tonight, started off as just another innocent phone call, but like fridays effort, it quickly spiralled into something more. It's exciting and really makes me realise just why this is all so important to me in the first place.
I made up a fairy tale ! I was asked to talk about a Prince and a Princess. The subtle indication wasn't lost on me. I could see the path i was being carted down, i didn't fully give into the notion, i left it just open ended enough to play to my strengths.
The encounter has put a smile on my face, the uncertainty is less prevailing, cause deep down i know it's meant to be. I Can't confirm or define soul mates, but i think i can see the appeal, and know how it must feel .
-' I'm going to the top, i'm gonna be somebody.'
-' I know you are. And im going to hold your hand all the way up there, and i promise i won't let it go.. Ever'
-' I want you up there. I want you there always.'
Good night dreamers and romantics. We'll see when we get there.
I'll be talkin to ya xx
Of course, nothing is confirmed or even talked over, but i just know that a understanding was reached. What was said, was so close to being an open statement that the feeling and message is there. Just waiting to be acted upon. 10 months ...... The cash incentive makes that possible.
The chat tonight, started off as just another innocent phone call, but like fridays effort, it quickly spiralled into something more. It's exciting and really makes me realise just why this is all so important to me in the first place.
I made up a fairy tale ! I was asked to talk about a Prince and a Princess. The subtle indication wasn't lost on me. I could see the path i was being carted down, i didn't fully give into the notion, i left it just open ended enough to play to my strengths.
The encounter has put a smile on my face, the uncertainty is less prevailing, cause deep down i know it's meant to be. I Can't confirm or define soul mates, but i think i can see the appeal, and know how it must feel .
-' I'm going to the top, i'm gonna be somebody.'
-' I know you are. And im going to hold your hand all the way up there, and i promise i won't let it go.. Ever'
-' I want you up there. I want you there always.'
Good night dreamers and romantics. We'll see when we get there.
I'll be talkin to ya xx
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
Brrrrrr.......
Brrrr.......
She was cold you see ! The warmest day here in ages and she was cold ! She said Brrrr....
How Cute. Very....
Was a perfectly well spent 4 hours. Seen alot and had a nice lunch. Perfect company too.
Welcome home M'dear :) I'm Still noticing. Won't stop noticing.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
She was cold you see ! The warmest day here in ages and she was cold ! She said Brrrr....
How Cute. Very....
Was a perfectly well spent 4 hours. Seen alot and had a nice lunch. Perfect company too.
Welcome home M'dear :) I'm Still noticing. Won't stop noticing.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Brrrrrr.......
Brrrr.......
She was cold you see ! The warmest day here in ages and she was cold ! She said Brrrr....
How Cute. Very....
Was a perfectly well spent 4 hours. Seen alot and had a nice lunch. Perfect company too.
Welcome home M'dear :) I'm Still noticing. Won't stop noticing.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
She was cold you see ! The warmest day here in ages and she was cold ! She said Brrrr....
How Cute. Very....
Was a perfectly well spent 4 hours. Seen alot and had a nice lunch. Perfect company too.
Welcome home M'dear :) I'm Still noticing. Won't stop noticing.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Going Away To College
Just a fucking great song really !
'Please take me by the hand, It's so cold out tonight,
I'll put blankets on the bed, I won't turn out the light,
Just don't forget to think about me, And I won't forget you, I'll write you once a week she said,
Why does it feel the same to fall in love or break it off,
And if young love is just a game then I must have missed the kick off,
Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything,
But I'd go through hell for you and....
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.
I'll think about the times, She kissed me after class,
And she put up with my friends, I acted like an ass,
I'd ditch my lecture to watch the girls play soccer,
Is my picture still hanging in her locker?
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.'
Blink 182 !!! Quite possibly the best band ever !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
'Please take me by the hand, It's so cold out tonight,
I'll put blankets on the bed, I won't turn out the light,
Just don't forget to think about me, And I won't forget you, I'll write you once a week she said,
Why does it feel the same to fall in love or break it off,
And if young love is just a game then I must have missed the kick off,
Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything,
But I'd go through hell for you and....
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.
I'll think about the times, She kissed me after class,
And she put up with my friends, I acted like an ass,
I'd ditch my lecture to watch the girls play soccer,
Is my picture still hanging in her locker?
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.'
Blink 182 !!! Quite possibly the best band ever !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Going Away To College
Just a fucking great song really !
'Please take me by the hand, It's so cold out tonight,
I'll put blankets on the bed, I won't turn out the light,
Just don't forget to think about me, And I won't forget you, I'll write you once a week she said,
Why does it feel the same to fall in love or break it off,
And if young love is just a game then I must have missed the kick off,
Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything,
But I'd go through hell for you and....
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.
I'll think about the times, She kissed me after class,
And she put up with my friends, I acted like an ass,
I'd ditch my lecture to watch the girls play soccer,
Is my picture still hanging in her locker?
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.'
Blink 182 !!! Quite possibly the best band ever !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
'Please take me by the hand, It's so cold out tonight,
I'll put blankets on the bed, I won't turn out the light,
Just don't forget to think about me, And I won't forget you, I'll write you once a week she said,
Why does it feel the same to fall in love or break it off,
And if young love is just a game then I must have missed the kick off,
Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything,
But I'd go through hell for you and....
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.
I'll think about the times, She kissed me after class,
And she put up with my friends, I acted like an ass,
I'd ditch my lecture to watch the girls play soccer,
Is my picture still hanging in her locker?
I haven't been this scared in a long time,
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine,
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody,
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me.'
Blink 182 !!! Quite possibly the best band ever !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Friday, 21 August 2009
Like The Deserts Miss The Rain
It's been a very long summer for me. I've really Been 'on vacation' since mid-May. Which means that when I'm starting uni (September 7th) I'll have been doing my own thing for the best part of four months ! Mad eh ! But it has given me more time to think then i'd usually have, and with that a chance to really sort out my priorities.
What has dawned on me is that theirs one person who means as much to me as anyone, despite maybe not deserving such affection. It shouldn't have came as a surprise ! It's probably obvious to everyone but I do try and pretend that I can do without.... Truth is I can't, not at all.
I last saw her late June (26th) and since then she has went home for the summer. Last year it wasn't too difficult as we managed to meet up and afterwards talk almost everyday, sometimes fir more then ten hours at a time, sounds boring and pathetic, but it was something special , to be able to talk so much with a person with no breaks for such a long time. That kinda thing really confirms a strong bond.
This years been completely differant though. A few small chats here and there, but nothing major. We don't have the same relationship we had last year, or atleast we tell ourselves that, and therefore we aren't waiting patiently to speech to each other. She has new people and I do too I suppose. But nothing anywere near what their was between us. And I'd bet that works both ways ! It'll take a he'll of a lot to be in the same league as that, probably the most affection a person can feel for another, first love ? Maybe. Real love ? Definatly.
But for the first time, I'm going to admit the obvious. Despite acting as if it's not the case ! I'll just put it out there, despite it being really hard to admit.
I fucking miss her. Like so much that when I'm on my own I actually feel ill. It annoys me, that I can't get out of my system. I probably never will ! Every girl I've met since then is a substitute and fuck all more. I look for peices of her in any girl that has the bad luck of crossing my path. I don't feel the same way with any of the though. And so I pretty much just limit myself to one night only things. If I can't find anybody who in some way reminds me of you, I just pick the most damaged, crazy, screwed up person I can find, and that can't end up good for either side.
Basicly you were perfect, what I'd spend forever looking for and what I've lost and will maybe never find again ! I just miss you so much and I love you to peices, despite what happened. Their will always be something between us, it's just a question of whether we are. Willing to go through it all again.
I know you might be Reading, if so I'm sorry, but you know it anyways, and you know it's true. At some point we're both going to have to stop running, especially now that we're running in the same direction. It's just a question of when !
'I've seen your act, but I know the facts, I'm still in love with you, I wish you were hear'
I'll be talkin to yaa XxX
What has dawned on me is that theirs one person who means as much to me as anyone, despite maybe not deserving such affection. It shouldn't have came as a surprise ! It's probably obvious to everyone but I do try and pretend that I can do without.... Truth is I can't, not at all.
I last saw her late June (26th) and since then she has went home for the summer. Last year it wasn't too difficult as we managed to meet up and afterwards talk almost everyday, sometimes fir more then ten hours at a time, sounds boring and pathetic, but it was something special , to be able to talk so much with a person with no breaks for such a long time. That kinda thing really confirms a strong bond.
This years been completely differant though. A few small chats here and there, but nothing major. We don't have the same relationship we had last year, or atleast we tell ourselves that, and therefore we aren't waiting patiently to speech to each other. She has new people and I do too I suppose. But nothing anywere near what their was between us. And I'd bet that works both ways ! It'll take a he'll of a lot to be in the same league as that, probably the most affection a person can feel for another, first love ? Maybe. Real love ? Definatly.
But for the first time, I'm going to admit the obvious. Despite acting as if it's not the case ! I'll just put it out there, despite it being really hard to admit.
I fucking miss her. Like so much that when I'm on my own I actually feel ill. It annoys me, that I can't get out of my system. I probably never will ! Every girl I've met since then is a substitute and fuck all more. I look for peices of her in any girl that has the bad luck of crossing my path. I don't feel the same way with any of the though. And so I pretty much just limit myself to one night only things. If I can't find anybody who in some way reminds me of you, I just pick the most damaged, crazy, screwed up person I can find, and that can't end up good for either side.
Basicly you were perfect, what I'd spend forever looking for and what I've lost and will maybe never find again ! I just miss you so much and I love you to peices, despite what happened. Their will always be something between us, it's just a question of whether we are. Willing to go through it all again.
I know you might be Reading, if so I'm sorry, but you know it anyways, and you know it's true. At some point we're both going to have to stop running, especially now that we're running in the same direction. It's just a question of when !
'I've seen your act, but I know the facts, I'm still in love with you, I wish you were hear'
I'll be talkin to yaa XxX
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