Why aim for the moon ?
When we have stars....
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xx
Friday, 26 June 2009
Part time lover, Full time friend
I don't really have anything pressing to write ! Just a burning desire to write something. Strange eh ? So i'll try and make some sense of my thoughts and get them down.
It's a weird situation to be in, when you are friends with somebody not because of a building of a friendship, but because of a break-down of a relationship. Like the friendship really does feel kinda false, almost as if i am only there, serving that role, in the hope that i can sweep up the shit and take home the prize when the chance comes. But whilst it does feel lik that sometimes, i also enjoy it. As people go, she's the best, just brilliant, and it's really great to still have her in my life, allbeit in a reduced role. I know though that if i need somebody to talk to, their always about and willing, vise versa aswel ! At least i hope anyway.
So what i'm tryin to say is really, that i'm just working on convincing myself that my intentions aren't bad, and i am being so nice and stuff, just because i want to and that maybe it;s cause i really can be a nice caring person, not just a scheming, manipulative little fuck.
She is hot though ! It's problematic ! haha
I'll be talkin to ya xx
It's a weird situation to be in, when you are friends with somebody not because of a building of a friendship, but because of a break-down of a relationship. Like the friendship really does feel kinda false, almost as if i am only there, serving that role, in the hope that i can sweep up the shit and take home the prize when the chance comes. But whilst it does feel lik that sometimes, i also enjoy it. As people go, she's the best, just brilliant, and it's really great to still have her in my life, allbeit in a reduced role. I know though that if i need somebody to talk to, their always about and willing, vise versa aswel ! At least i hope anyway.
So what i'm tryin to say is really, that i'm just working on convincing myself that my intentions aren't bad, and i am being so nice and stuff, just because i want to and that maybe it;s cause i really can be a nice caring person, not just a scheming, manipulative little fuck.
She is hot though ! It's problematic ! haha
I'll be talkin to ya xx
Part time lover, Full time friend
I don't really have anything pressing to write ! Just a burning desire to write something. Strange eh ? So i'll try and make some sense of my thoughts and get them down.
It's a weird situation to be in, when you are friends with somebody not because of a building of a friendship, but because of a break-down of a relationship. Like the friendship really does feel kinda false, almost as if i am only there, serving that role, in the hope that i can sweep up the shit and take home the prize when the chance comes. But whilst it does feel lik that sometimes, i also enjoy it. As people go, she's the best, just brilliant, and it's really great to still have her in my life, allbeit in a reduced role. I know though that if i need somebody to talk to, their always about and willing, vise versa aswel ! At least i hope anyway.
So what i'm tryin to say is really, that i'm just working on convincing myself that my intentions aren't bad, and i am being so nice and stuff, just because i want to and that maybe it;s cause i really can be a nice caring person, not just a scheming, manipulative little fuck.
She is hot though ! It's problematic ! haha
I'll be talkin to ya xx
It's a weird situation to be in, when you are friends with somebody not because of a building of a friendship, but because of a break-down of a relationship. Like the friendship really does feel kinda false, almost as if i am only there, serving that role, in the hope that i can sweep up the shit and take home the prize when the chance comes. But whilst it does feel lik that sometimes, i also enjoy it. As people go, she's the best, just brilliant, and it's really great to still have her in my life, allbeit in a reduced role. I know though that if i need somebody to talk to, their always about and willing, vise versa aswel ! At least i hope anyway.
So what i'm tryin to say is really, that i'm just working on convincing myself that my intentions aren't bad, and i am being so nice and stuff, just because i want to and that maybe it;s cause i really can be a nice caring person, not just a scheming, manipulative little fuck.
She is hot though ! It's problematic ! haha
I'll be talkin to ya xx
Monday, 22 June 2009
Happy Birthday Steve
Happy Birthday to me :)
17 now, good times, nothing really changes, 18's the big one, but still. Can drive now though ! Sorta gonna miss being able to say i'm 16 has a nice ring to it.
It's sorta sad though, in comparing this year to last. This time last year as i turned 16 i had a very special friends stayin over, and she gave me the best birthday ever ! This year i'm pretty much on this, writing about it, to absouloutly nobody. How things can change eh.
I would give anything to go back to last year and relive that, i mean anything, not that i would change it, it really was my favourite birthday ever.
Soo 17 now, what has the last year given me ? Let's see...
Love
Heartbreak
Confusion
Anger
Fear
Hope
Excitement
Dissapointment
Elation
Understanding
And above all... A reason to believe that it will all get better !
So yeah, wow, this has been the fastest and slowest year of my life, the best and worse. I'll miss being 16, but hopefully, i've learned from it. After all, the mistakes i've made should have taught me something....
' The Good Thing About Being Young, Is Not Being Old Enough To Know That You Cannot Possibly Do The Things That You're Doing'
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
17 now, good times, nothing really changes, 18's the big one, but still. Can drive now though ! Sorta gonna miss being able to say i'm 16 has a nice ring to it.
It's sorta sad though, in comparing this year to last. This time last year as i turned 16 i had a very special friends stayin over, and she gave me the best birthday ever ! This year i'm pretty much on this, writing about it, to absouloutly nobody. How things can change eh.
I would give anything to go back to last year and relive that, i mean anything, not that i would change it, it really was my favourite birthday ever.
Soo 17 now, what has the last year given me ? Let's see...
Love
Heartbreak
Confusion
Anger
Fear
Hope
Excitement
Dissapointment
Elation
Understanding
And above all... A reason to believe that it will all get better !
So yeah, wow, this has been the fastest and slowest year of my life, the best and worse. I'll miss being 16, but hopefully, i've learned from it. After all, the mistakes i've made should have taught me something....
' The Good Thing About Being Young, Is Not Being Old Enough To Know That You Cannot Possibly Do The Things That You're Doing'
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Happy Birthday Steve
Happy Birthday to me :)
17 now, good times, nothing really changes, 18's the big one, but still. Can drive now though ! Sorta gonna miss being able to say i'm 16 has a nice ring to it.
It's sorta sad though, in comparing this year to last. This time last year as i turned 16 i had a very special friends stayin over, and she gave me the best birthday ever ! This year i'm pretty much on this, writing about it, to absouloutly nobody. How things can change eh.
I would give anything to go back to last year and relive that, i mean anything, not that i would change it, it really was my favourite birthday ever.
Soo 17 now, what has the last year given me ? Let's see...
Love
Heartbreak
Confusion
Anger
Fear
Hope
Excitement
Dissapointment
Elation
Understanding
And above all... A reason to believe that it will all get better !
So yeah, wow, this has been the fastest and slowest year of my life, the best and worse. I'll miss being 16, but hopefully, i've learned from it. After all, the mistakes i've made should have taught me something....
' The Good Thing About Being Young, Is Not Being Old Enough To Know That You Cannot Possibly Do The Things That You're Doing'
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
17 now, good times, nothing really changes, 18's the big one, but still. Can drive now though ! Sorta gonna miss being able to say i'm 16 has a nice ring to it.
It's sorta sad though, in comparing this year to last. This time last year as i turned 16 i had a very special friends stayin over, and she gave me the best birthday ever ! This year i'm pretty much on this, writing about it, to absouloutly nobody. How things can change eh.
I would give anything to go back to last year and relive that, i mean anything, not that i would change it, it really was my favourite birthday ever.
Soo 17 now, what has the last year given me ? Let's see...
Love
Heartbreak
Confusion
Anger
Fear
Hope
Excitement
Dissapointment
Elation
Understanding
And above all... A reason to believe that it will all get better !
So yeah, wow, this has been the fastest and slowest year of my life, the best and worse. I'll miss being 16, but hopefully, i've learned from it. After all, the mistakes i've made should have taught me something....
' The Good Thing About Being Young, Is Not Being Old Enough To Know That You Cannot Possibly Do The Things That You're Doing'
I'll be talkin to ya xxx
Sunday, 21 June 2009
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