I keep saying i've gotta stop living in the past. But sometimes it's inevitable. Things trigger memories y'know. How can i just ignore that, it goes against everything i am. I'm a sucker for nostalgia. Looking back is less scary then looking forward. And far more comforting. Especially in those moments where just for a second you actually manage to trick yourself into feeling exactly how you felt back then. That's the moments to savour, the good stuff right there. A moment in your life were you know that in month or years you will be looking back and enjoying it again and again.
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Thursday, 23 December 2010
Last Christmas...
I keep saying i've gotta stop living in the past. But sometimes it's inevitable. Things trigger memories y'know. How can i just ignore that, it goes against everything i am. I'm a sucker for nostalgia. Looking back is less scary then looking forward. And far more comforting. Especially in those moments where just for a second you actually manage to trick yourself into feeling exactly how you felt back then. That's the moments to savour, the good stuff right there. A moment in your life were you know that in month or years you will be looking back and enjoying it again and again.
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
This day last year (das 23rd ya) was when it all sorta came to a head, the wheels that had been in motion moved of the start line and picked up pace. We had a Mcdonalds, then watched it's a wonderful life. She didnt like it, but i did. So there ya go. And it is a fucking christmas movie ! haha.
It's strange though. Christmas is always a nice time, but last year just felt differant, special. Maybe that's just the way i see it looking back, but even at the time there was a sort of magic in the night. I suppose it was due to the fact that it was the first year with my friends from uni, and the period leading upto it had been kinda brilliant. Christmas day was just so unexpectdly awesome that it could barely be topped ever, well not for awhile atleast. Then New years was brillinat, a whole gang of us and whatta night. So much fun, and a nice way to end up. So yeah, there was a lull from mid January onwards, but by mid february/March it all kicked of again and then Boom ! An end game, good night Vienna. Picture perfect. I liked how it culminated. 'Twas good. :)
So yeah, basically what i'm getting at was last year was perfect, this year is looking far from it, but you know i'm not bothered anymore. It's exactly what iv've been slavering about all along but it's true. Only when things drop so low can they lift so high. I'm not too low at the moment, but i'm due a lift. Most certaintly, and it's gotta be coming along soon. Diaries marked people. There's a storm a'brewing. I can feel it in my toes. Fucking A right i can.
Smile boys, it's that time of year again, Suit up and let's rock n roll.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Like A Rolling Stone
Some people can't help but fire in too heavy handed. How was I to guess that she was gonna be this contradictory ? She wears promiscuity like a badge of honour, but then declares herself heartbroken. For fuck sake. I've always got to find some drama don't I. Even when I'm trying to avoid it, I get caught up !
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Like A Rolling Stone
Some people can't help but fire in too heavy handed. How was I to guess that she was gonna be this contradictory ? She wears promiscuity like a badge of honour, but then declares herself heartbroken. For fuck sake. I've always got to find some drama don't I. Even when I'm trying to avoid it, I get caught up !
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
I was totally cool with the friends thing. I know it causes bother because she's burnt bridges with our (formally) mutual friends, but I can deal with that. I had no major issues. But then this !
No, I wasn't using her !
No, I wasn't leading her on !
No, I don't want anything more !
I mean shit guys, could it have been anymore obvious that this was the case ?seriously, there was no thought my end. I was just living life, enjoying myself while I'm at it, (not really in fairness mind :/) and just trying to exist without dying. Easier said then done clearly.
I suppose some folks are just a little troubled, more so than I could ever appreciate, and therefore I won't judge you on it, just put it down to deeper things than my awesomeness ! That was a joke by the way.
True what they say about judging books by their covers mind, bad fucking idea !
Please, just act your age and let things be. It's not difficult. Accept that it's a no, and move on,
Thankyou.
I'll Be Talkin To Ya XxX
Thursday, 2 December 2010
I-Empire
Selfish.....
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
I-Empire
Selfish.....
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
What's that all about then ?
So am i selfish ? Surely looking out for yourself ain't selfish. Only if it's you and only you. I'm not like that, i care abouts lots of other people. Some more, some less, but that's bnot the point. I do care !
People say, the world doesnt revolve around you > But it must do ? Does it bnot revolve around every individual, it obnly depends on what individual we're talking about here. The world that we all occupy has to revolve around exclusivly us, to ourselves. Because we see everything from chiefly our own perspective ! So in theory to me, thee wolrd i live in and the space i occupy is mine. Therefore it is surely wise of me to try and make the ost of it, and move thing around to suit myself. it that not human nature. Self preservation ? I'm pretty sure it is.
Why then must other people throw there weight into my existance, friends are there to support and offer advice. But not judge. I know that doesn't sound particularly right, but it fucking is !
Really, does it matter. Nobody should care unless people are getting hurt, but that's only happening because other humans are offering there scewed and shakey opinions. They are entitled too, i suppose, but maybe they should just sit back. There is no problem. They are the making the problem, in consequence that makes them the probblem. I dont even know who i'm talking about. I just like forces are constatnly moving to ruin me. For no reason other then what they think it right. But is it ? No.
At the end of the day, this is all mine. My life, my fun, my mess. So it's on me whatever the fuck happens. And i'm good at dealing with this, especially when it's as easy as this. i've been doing it for years. It's second nature. And yeah, i might wish this was last year instead, 'cause it was miles fucking better, but sometime slife doesn't play the cards you want. So i can look back and mile cause this time last year was fricken awesome. That's the past but, i'm her enow, so i'm entitled to make the best of it, and i like to think i am.
I'm in control of my own life. Therefore my choices are mine and mine alone, The whisperers can keep whispering to themselves as far as i'm concerned. I don't need there help. This is my fucking empire. And i'm in charge !
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
Thursday, 25 November 2010
Kid's From Yesterday
'And now this could be the last of all the rides we take,
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
So hold on tight and don't look back,
We don't care about the message or the rules they make,
We'll find you when the sun goes black,
And you want to live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate,
They only care if you can bleed,
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?,
Or every person that you need to be,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today,
We're young the world stopped breathing,
Yeah we left 'til your heart stops beating,
Cause you wanna live forever in the lights you make,
When we were young we used to say,
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break,
Now we are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
We are the kids from yesterday,
Today, today.
- My Chemical Romance. This is one of the best songs, on there recent album release. 'Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys.'
I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx
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