Strange.

I have had one of the weirdest three week periods of my life recently. That is saying something !

I can't define it now, simply because there really isn't anything solid to examine. But what i do know is that something is slowly going away, it's like therapy almost. I might feel better once this is all tied up. As a lifestyle choice, the way i have been going on hasn't been working for me, sure in fits and starts, but overall i've been a miserable bastard ! There has been no salvation, no great change in direction. Justa flicker, that maybe it's not as bad as i thought.

Maybe i haven't lost it. Or possibly i've just found it again ? I can't even begin to imagine... But something is waiting in the shadows, sure of it. There's beauty in a car crash, and this is exactly what i am witnessing. One giant, wreck waiting to happen. Matter of time i'd say.

Let's tear it down, brick by fucking brick.... We'll see. Maybe not yet.

I'll Be Talkin To Ya xxx