Stop The Clocks

So i was talkin yesterday with some people and the topic came up of whether (if you had the choice of course) would you go back and change anything. At first i gave a steadfast no ! I argued that every little action i'd made resulted in me being me, and having the life i do right now. And i quite like it really. But then i put more thought into it and the question sorta got more complicated. Alot more complicated actually :/

I thought about the question from the aspect of recent history y'know and how things have all panned out. At the moment it's all pretty good and i'm having a decent timee etc, but it dawned on me pretty quickly that certain aspects of the last year or so i would maybe change. Things i've said, done and acted. Going all the way back to the last few months i spent at school, and the way i left, the ties i cut and stuff. Maybe i shouldn't have been quit so ruthless and aggresive in the way i went about dismantling my group of friends. But to be fair i didn't particularly like them much.

I've got more regret over other things that went on that sorta dampened the overall brilliance of year 1 at university. It was kinda one of the situations were i didn't realise i was doing much wrong and tbh i still think that i wasn't soley to blame for anything. But i will admit to myself now that i did do some things that wern't the nicest. And maybe i acted like abit of a twat occasionaly. Infact, maybe quite often ! I suppose it was just one of those things that i didn't realise i was risking something and acting dumb until it was too late and things weren't how they should be. So yeah, i didn't realise it was lost till it was gone and at that point i was too distracted to be as apologetic as i should be. But hey, i suppose i can still make amends :)

So yeah, basicly, i'm of the opinion that whilst everything that happens carries you on to the next part of your life, and even bad shit eventually works itself into something kinda decent, their are still some little things that you can regret and maybe look back and hope to change. But what is in the past is in the past, and maybe, just maybe, it should stick there (Y)

I'll Be TAlkin To Ya xxx