Dearly Beloved....

To Whom it may concern. This is the last will and testement. The last draw of breath to be had here. For now and the forseeable future. This just isn't fun anymore. It's all too serious, all too real, and that doesn't make this good reading, or good writing. So for now, and untill such times as i see fit, this is a ghost town, a throwback.

I can only look back and say this, this time last year it felt like everything was way out infront of me, life was good and something special was in the air. How right i was ! Thing's swung from one moment of perfection to the best, and yeah it all eventually blew up but getting ther was fun ! Now it seems like all the best that was on offer is behind me, yeah i get that it sounds down-beat but it's true, so in turn this page has suffered, how many times can i sit and moan the shit out of everything untill it get's very, very boring ! Not any more is the answer. So it's time to take a step back and stop !

So what's to do ? I feel more Runkle than Moody these day's. Even Rick Srringfield doesn't have the answers. Mothaaa Fuckaaaa, the games a bogey. Time to pack up and get out i'd say ! Da, da,daa, da, da, dada, daa, dada. Or something like that ! Jesus, I piss myself off sometimes. I don;t want this to turn into some sorta long, rambling goodbye, but i can see it heading in that direction, i'll have to do some havy editing i think.

So atm, what's it all like. I feel (more or less) like i'm drifting in and out, sometimes i'm capable and smart, other times i'm just a horrendous fuck up ! I've been working really hard to secure a friend, somebody who deep down i think doesn't really like me, but at the same times is drawn in enough to spend time with me, and at the end of the day i want to be her friend, regardless of her issues. And i think i'm doing that well. Or, at least as well as i can be. I've got a busy time coming up as it goes, at the end of this week i'm heading up North for a few days, with seven of my mates for a weekend away. It's two of their birthdays so that'll be a good laugh. The way the numbers have worked out have thrown a certain spanner in the works however, so we'll see how that pans out. I'm actually quite interested yet apprehensive about all that ! I suppose i'll find out soonish anyway. Once i'm back from thre i've got a few trips to the doctors to see too, nothing startling, just some shit to deal with, and then my friend's dad's 50th birthday party which knowing my family and friends will be a fantastic night :)  So it's all systems go for that ! And then the following week i have three uni essays to hand in ! That'll be a struggle, but i always scrape through. So fingers crossed.

Ok, so that's that then, it was intended to be a lot longer, but i've cut it all down to a very small size, i couldn't be assed with the fancy shit ! At the end of the day it's clear what i'm saying. Untill i get everything back in order and on track, i'm leaving this behind. I'm pretty sure few of you will be upset, but it's kinda a big deal for me. IN case any of you missed it by the way, it was this pagges two year birthday earlier in the month. SO when would be a better time to send it on a hiatus. At the end of the day, we all know i'll be back on this and sputing forth my opinions and the like in no time at all, but hopefully when that happens it'll spell my return to the game with good news. Untill then everybody....


I''ll be talkin' to ya xxx

(And not for a long time.)